Best Friends? Or More? [EDITING]

Chapter 36

• I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you•

"He wants me to move back to New York with him."

I felt numb. I couldn't hear anything even though I could see his lips moving. Gabriel was leaving. Those were the only words echoing on my mind. He was leaving. Leaving me. 

I suddenly jolted and stepped back when I noticed Gabriel coming towards me. He was leaving. The truth hit me like a truck and my eyes started to tear up. He was leaving. I turned around and ran. I didn't know where I was running away to but I needed to let his voice stop saying that in my head. I didn't want to hear it, To believe it.

"Ellie!

I came back to reality when I heard Zach calling my name. I was clutching his shirt so tightly that my palm began to hurt. I looked up to him with teary eyes, letting it flow, unable to hold it in any longer.

"Zach. Please take me home." I whispered, burying my face in his chest.

"Ella." Gabriel called out my name. When he called out my name before, my heart always acted up. But this time it was painful. He was going to leave me. Just like mom did.

"Ella. Listen to me." Gabriel said again which made me flinch and hold onto Zach tighter.

"I'll take her home. Noah, please drive them back." Zach said and led me towards his car. "I'm right here, Ellie. I got you." He whispered, kissing the side of my head.

 Like I thought, it gave me a little bit of comfort but I wished it was Gabriel. but he was leaving and it was painful to even think about it.

Gabriel's POV

I watched as Zach led Ella away from me. Every step she took further away, made my heart clench painfully. I really fucked it up, huh?

"Gabriel? What the heck happened between you both?" Gemma demanded, her eyes filled with tears. Of course she would get mad at me. I hurt her best friend.

"Let them talk it out. He doesn't want to talk right now." Maddison stepped in. Though I was surprised how she knew what I was feeling, I looked at her gratefully. Her eyes was emotionless. For the first time was she looking like that.

"I'll drive." Noah sighed and led Gemma towards my truck. With one glare thrown at me, she walked off with him.

"Lets go." Maddison just said and walked away as well. Why did I feel like everyone was mad at me? I chuckled dryly. Because I always fuck up right?

The ride home was silent. no one talked or even looked me in the face. Maddison just slammed the door shut and walked inside her house without much of a goodbye. I decided to drive after that. When I reached Gemma's home, she walked out and then faced me. 

"If you hurt Ellie more than this, I won't ever forgive you, Gabriel. When her mother passed away, the expression she made that day was really painful that I could almost feel it. So I promised that I will make sure she won't ever make that expression ever again." She paused and took a deep breath which made Noah hold her. "But today, because of you, she made that expression again. I broke my promise with myself and I'm hating myself for that. You don't know how much I hate you right now." she sobbed.

The grip on my steering wheel tightened when she said that. I was really useless. I only hurt people who get close to me. That's why I didn't even deserve to have friends.

"I know that already." I said, my own eyes starting to fill with tears. "I hate myself too." I looked up at Noah and gave him a small smile. "Please take care of her." He nodded.