Best Friends? Or More? [EDITING]

Chapter 9

•You can't rush something you want to last forever•

"I don't want to lose you."

Wait what?

What was he saying? Why would he be jealous if he only sees me as a best friend? My heart thudded violently against my chest. I have been waiting for this moment a whole year and when it's finally happening, I don't want him to say it? What was wrong with me?

"W-Why?" I asked, finding my voice. My palms were sweaty and I was highly alert, ready to engrave every word coming from his mouth to my mind.

"Because..." He paused and his eyes showed that he was comtemplating on what to say next. He seemed confused himself.

"Because you're my best friend. I thought spending time with Gabriel would take you away from me and from what I've seen you both have been spending a lot of time together. I don't want to lose you to him."

Oh. Best friend again.

I let out the breath I had been holding. What was I thinking? He wouldn't just suddenly love me back. I was pathetic.

I smiled tiredly and looked down. My eyes were filled with tears. Not sad tears nor depressing tears. Tears of my tiredness. I was tired. Tired of hoping too much from someone who wouldn't even look at me the way I looked at him. Tired of waiting that someday he would love me back. My patience was wearing thin and I knew that one day I would just spit it out to the world that I was in love with my best friend. One-sided love sucked big time.

"Hey Elli, I'm sorry." Zach said and pulled me in his arms. I leaned into him just for the time being. "I'm sorry I got angry over such a little thing. I shouldn't have done that. You have a say in who you hang out with and I turned out to be a possesive best friend. Please forgive me? I promise I'll make it up to you."

I smiled and nodded. I couldn't say anything, afraid that I would choke on my unshed tears or something. I hastily wiped it away and pulled away from him.

"Let's get to class."

***

"You both fought for Gabriel?" Gemma asked as she fell into step with me.

"Huh?"

"I heard from Jenna during lunch. You and Zach fought over Gabriel being your friend? That's like so childish." She grimaced.

I sighed. "Zach said he was jealous with me hanging out with Gabriel too much."

She grinned and wiggled her eyebrows suggestively. "He totally likes you. He's just not admitting it yet."

I rolled my eyes. "It's not like that. He always makes it pretty clear that I'm his best friend and nothing else even if he's unaware of my feelings."

She gave me a reassuring smile. "He'll come around."

"Who knows? Anyways, I'll see you later." I said then jogged towards a waiting Zach.

Suddenly, I bumped into someone and was about to fall down but someone caught me beforehand, making tingles go down my spine.