Best Friends? Or More? [EDITING]

Chapter 28

•i wish I could hurt you the way you hurt me. But I know that if I had the chance, I wouldn't do it.•

Nothing.

That's what I was feeling. Was I dead? How was I dead? I couldn't even remember why I would die. But where the heck was I?

Then I felt it. It was a tingling sensation but it sent pleasures throughout my whole body. Something different after not feeling anything at all. But I couldn't see who it was that was holding my hand. I wanted to, but I couldn't. And it frustrated the hell out of me.

"Hey Elliana."

I remember this voice. What was his name again?

Gabriel.

It was Gabriel. My heart ached at the sound of his voice. He seemed tired, torn out and dejected. I hated this tone of his voice.

He chuckled softly and I felt my heart constrict in a good way. He should laugh more.

"They said you had gone into a temporary coma and that you would be listening even though you're not awake. And depending on how the monitor just blew up, I take it that you're listening?" He asked hopefully and I wanted so badly to nod my head yes but I knew I couldn't move an inch at all.

"So I guess I'll keep talking and you would listen." He continued in the same dejected voice. "It's funny how I don't have a nickname for you. Everyone of your friends call you by one. You did say it was a combination of Ella and Tiana right? So how about I call you Ella?"

My heart hammered against my chest and I could here the monitor beeping like crazy. That was how much Gabriel's words was affecting me.

"You like it? Alright. Ella it is." I could almost feel him smile even in this condition. I have to wake up soon. I have to.

"I have been meaning to tell you something. Remember when I told you about Zach, Maddison and me?" I do. "I didn't tell you one important thing." Wait. What?

He paused. Why did he pause?

"I was in love with Maddison as well." My heart constricted painfully and I felt nothing again. Why was I hurting so much? First Zach and now Gabriel too? Don't tell me he is still in love with her.

"I couldn't help not fall in love with her. Nobody could. But my best friend loved her first. And I loved my best friend. So I suppressed my feelings. I wanted them to be happy together. It was hard but I had to do it for our friendship. Because for me, our friendship was more important than anything. But all my respect for Maddison were gone the day she called me a pathetic excuse for using my mother's illness. I hat- no I loathed her after that."

He paused again. No. I wanted him to continue. I wanted to hear what was after that.

"But I don't want to do the same mistake again, you know. I was scared when I started to get attached to you. After what Maddison and Zach did, heck I was scared to get close to anyone. But you came in like a storm. Forcefully yet with determination and found a place inside me yourself. You tore down my walls of insecurity and numbness and made me feel things I never even felt with Maddison. I know you still love Zach because I know it will be hard to forget him. He was your first love after all. But I don't want to make the mistake of giving up again because I know I need you. I need you to prevent me from building those walls again. I don't care if you still have feelings for Zach, but if you are hearing me now, I want you to wake up and say yes to me. I love you, Ella."

I felt it.

How my heart felt heavy and a tear fell down my cheek. Gabriel loved me. The feeling of being loved was really beautiful. I never felt it with Zach because he never really loved me back. But when Gabriel said that, I felt the comfort, the overwhelming feeling of love, of contentment and happiness.