Last A Lifetime

CHAPTER 29 - "MERRY CHRISTMAS"

[Author's Note: I wasn't suppose to update Last A Lifetim.Sorry, I have been blanked lately and I thought I can't go on with the story. Well, I would try to finish it first before posting it completely. Sorry for super slow updates... But, here it is, I've wrote this weeks or months before but couldn't post it yet.haha! anyway, I hope you guys enjoy it! I miss you all! Please don't hesitate to contact me! I would love to hear from you guys!

PS: this chap is dedicated to the girl who made my day! (March 26, 2014) though she commented like 6 days ago. altheamarie25  thank youuu! 

CHAPTER 29 – “MERRY CHRISTMAS”

Merry Christmas.

I should have been happy, I have a great mom, a great friend and I HAD the greatest guy I’ve ever met. The guy who actually loved me and sees me for me, but I let it all go just for this stupid heart.

Why of all people I should be punished? Naging masama ba akong tao to deserve this?

“Gabby.”

“Oh, Nate. Ikaw pala.” Nakita ko siya nakatayo sa labas ng kwarto ko.

“Yeah, Merry Christmas.” Lumapit siya sa akin. He hugged me and I hugged him back.

“Merry Christmas.” I smiled at him.

“Bakit nandito ka lang sa kwarto mo? Usually diba you help your mom in cooking?”

“Ano? Ikaw imbento ka! Hindi kaya ako tumutulong sa pagluluto. Hindi mo ba alam na kahit mismong tubig eh, nasusunog ko pa!” Aba, tumawa ba ng malakas!

“Wow, so you know how to crack jokes now.” I just smiled at him. “God, I miss that about you, your smile.” Now this is becoming awkward. Like the last time. Cr*p! The last time. We haven’t talked about it since. After we kissed, he just said he’s sorry and I said that it’s better for him to leave and he did. Pero bilib din ako kay Nate. I thought he would try to distance himself from me because he’s also feeling awkward, but he didn’t. I think, lumutang yung fact na I still needed a friend, I needed him. Yes, nandiyan rin naman si Alex para sa akin pero, iba naman talaga to hear a guy’s perspective, diba? “You wanna grab some coffee?”

“Yeah, sure. I can use some fresh air.” Lumabas na kami ng bahay and went to the coffee shop. I insisted on driving and we are taking his car. Yes, yes I suck at driving compared to him! But hey, for a girl? I was average. He keeps on telling me “That’s how fast you can go? Speed up grandma!” nako ang mean talaga nito. Kaya noong dumating na kami sa coffee shop, when I got out of the car, I threw him his car keys.

“Fine! I know I suck at driving! Ikaw na magaling! Ikaw nalang mag drive pauwi! Ayoko na sumakay kasama ka!”

“Whoa, whoa. Come on Gab, I was just kidding. I thought we are just having fun. I’m sorry.”

“Really? You are?”

“Yes, I’m sorry that my grandma can drive faster than you.” Sinkmuraan ko nga. Kala niya ah! He was acting like he was experiencing severe pain but I won’t buy it. I should have been the one who should be in pain. Ang sakit kaya ng kamay ko! Ang tigas ba naman ng abs! Naku! Para sabihan na matigas yung abs!

“Sus! Ako pa nga dapat yung masaktan eh! Ang tigas kaya ng abs mo!” Holy Cr*p! That should have been an inside thought! I shouldn’t have thinking it out loud!

“Huli ka! Pinagnanasaan mo pala katawan ko eh!” Ang kapal nito! Pumasok na kami ng coffee shop at nag order na. We talked a lot. Kahit na these past few days lagi kaming magkasama, we don’t run out of things to talk about. This is what I missed about Nate, he’s outgoing.

“I miss him.” I blurted out.

“I know.” I can’t help myself, I cried. I am so in love with him. I can’t let him go.

“I hate this! I hate that I have this sickness! Hindi ko magawa yung gusto ko dahil sa sakit na to!”

“Gabby. Listen.” Pumunta siya sa side ko since magkaharap kami. He hugged me, tight. “Gabby, you can’t do this anymore.” I was crying on his shoulder. “You can’t blame yourself or your sickness. Kailangan mong maging mas matapang. Why don’t you use your sickness as an inspiration, an inspiration to live? Don’t make your sickness as an excuse for you not to enjoy life. Pakakawalan mo ang taong mahal mo just because you know you can’t be with him forever? Bakit hindi mo nalang isipin na, you have to be with him and make every moment count? Nothing last forever Gabby but make it last a lifetime.”

Alam kong tama si Nate. I should make it last a lifetime. I don’t care if my lifetime is not as long. I just have to enjoy it. Wow, I never thought na mangagaling pa mismo yun kay Nate. From the guy you thought was a jerk, turns out to be the guy who pushes me to become a better person. To become better period.

I smiled at him. And we kept on talking and enjoying ourselves, when suddenly a b*tch came. Sorry, I couldn’t think of anything that could describe her.

“Gabby.”

“Isabella.”

Tiningnan niya ako then si Nate. What a b*tch! Ano ba ang gusto nito? I know its Christmas but I have enough b*llsh*t in my life currently, trust me, I don’t need her.

“I’ve heard.” Kinabahan ako sa sinabi niya. Does she know? About me? About my sickness?

“Heard what?” I play innocently.

“About you and Ken. Wow, I really thought you’ve changed. I guess, you’re the same b*tch.”

“Hey! Enough, Isabella! You’re being rude. Plus it’s Christmas. You should give love not calling someone bad things.” Medyo natatawa ako kay Nate, may hint kasi ng sarcasm yung pagkasabi niya.

“Well, I think you two already did made love or should I say, you guys already f*cked. Isn’t that right Gabby? Because I think you don’t do love, you just like to f*ck. No attachments. No emotions. Just pure f*cking.” B*TCH!

I stood up, looking for my composure, when I did, I just smiled at her. And I came closer to her and whispered. “Hard.”

Tiningnan ko si Nate at tumayo narin siya. Umalis na kami agad. D*mn! I hate that girl! What a pretentious b*tch! Hindi niya naman ako kilala ah! How could she judge me like that? Mabuti pa siya alam yung sex life ko ha?

“I’m sorry.”

“What are you sorry for, Nate?”

“I didn’t defend you out there.”

“Oh, Nate.” I hugged him. “Of course, you did.”

“Wow, I didn’t know that she’s a total b*tch!” Whoa.

“Oh, akala ko ba don’t say bad things because it’s Christmas?” Tumawa naman ako.

“Well, she’s exemption to the rule.” Tumawa kami ng tumawa. Sumakay na kami ng sasakyan pagkatapos.

Noong pauwi na kami, I saw Ken. Naglalakad siya. Bakit siya naglalakad? Saan ‘yong sasakyan niya? I looked at him. He saw me.