My Dedication (Austin Carlile Fan Fic)

Ch. 25

*next morning*

*Austin's POV*

I rolled over and felt for Sophia, but she wasn't there. I opened my eyes and looked around. She wasn't in the room.

I heard something from the bathroom and went in there. Sophia stood with her back to the door. I said her name but she didn't hear me. I stepped up behind her and touched her arm. She jumped and dropped whatever she had in her hands. It hit the floor. I looked down. It was a pregnancy test.

Sophia covered her face with her hands and started crying. I grabbed her and held her close to me. Her whole body shook.

"Calm down, baby. It's okay." I whispered. I rubbed her back and held her as tight as I could. "Soph, it's okay. Don't cry, Sophia."

After a few minutes she pulled away and wiped her eyes. She crossed her arms and looked at the floor.

I looked at her. She was holding back more tears. I looked back down at the pregnancy test that still sat on the floor. Sophia sniffled and I looked back at her. She wiped her eyes and motioned towards it.

I picked it up but couldn't look at it. I looked at Sophia. She was crying again, silently. She wouldn't look at me.

"Soph, no matter what, I love you." I said.

She nodded but kept looking at the floor.

I took a deep breath and looked at the test. "It's positive."

Sophia covered her mouth to cover the sobbing sound that came from her. I pulled her to me and stroked her hair. She cried so hard that I could feel it in her belly.

"Baby, talk to me. Why are you so upset?" I asked. "The test said yes."

She pushed me and balled her fists. "It doesn't matter, Austin! I'll just have another fucking miscarriage and lose another baby! I'll never be a mother!" She screamed. She turned and punched the wall and left a hole.

I took her hand and pulled her into the bedroom. She curled up in a ball on the bed and started sobbing again. I rubbed her back.

"Sophie, maybe this time is different." I said. She said nothing, just cried. "I mean it, Soph. You never know. And if something happens, then we'll keep trying."

She sat up and shook her head. "You don't get it. I can't. I can't have kids, Austin. I don't know what's wrong with my body."

Her breath caught in her chest and she teared up again. I pulled her to me. She wrapped her arms around my waist and layed her head on my chest.

"Sophia, please don't cry anymore." I said.

I kept rubbing her back until she eventually cried herself to sleep. We layed there, for hours. I knew she was afraid and it killed me.

"Please God, let this be okay." I whispered.

*hours later*

*Sophia's POV*

I heard Austin moving around the room. I opened my eyes. He was getting dressed.

"Where are you going?" I asked, my voice hoarse from crying.

He turned and smiled then pulled a shirt on. "We're going to the doctors."

I pulled the blanket over me and rolled over to face him. "I didn't make an appointment."

He came over and sat at the edge of the bed. "After you fell asleep I made you one."

I shook my head. "There's no point, baby."

He moved my hair out of my face and stroked my cheek with his thumb. "Baby, when you had the miscarriages with Danny, you were drinking heavily and often. You were stressed and depressed which could've caused the miscarriages." He smiled and kissed my forehead. "You're sober now, and from what I can tell, you're happy."

I nodded. "What time?"

Austin looked at the clock. "We have to leave in 5 minutes." He smacked my butt. "Get dressed."