On The Way Of Loving You

another guy

Mark's P.O.V.

Everything became awkward between me, jinyoung and jaebum since that night.

And jaebum actually started ignoring me. He even stopped talking to me. He can't even look at me straight in the eyes. And I don't wanna see him either. That bastard betrayed me. It's like every time we saw each other, everything came flashing back in our minds.

"Hey mark, let's have some coffee outside." Jackson said which brings me back to reality.

"OK....let's go." I said back.

We headed towards the nearest coffee shop. And We met V and jimin there.

We were enjoying our coffee when suddenly we saw jinyoung passing by. He was with some other guy.
Who could that be??

"That's suga hyung, if you're wondering." V said out of nowhere.

I looked at him confused.

"Who's he?" I asked.

"He also used to like jinyoung once. I don't know if he still do but who knows." V replied.

"Yeah! And they weren't in relationship but you can tell, there was something between them cause they used to spend all the time together. And seems like he's back in L.A" jimin explained.

Suddenly I felt my heart becoming heavy. I can't loose jinyoung to anyone else. What if jinyoung likes him back. Damn! Why? Is this happening with me.

"Mark are you alright?" V asked when he noticed my 'not so happy' face.

"I'm OK!" I simply replied.

But I can't tell how am I feeling right now. I'm shit scared inside. I'm scared of loosing jinyoung.

First jaebum and now this Suga guy. And I can tell Suga is an attractive guy just by looking at him from the distance. It'll be difficult to beat him. Damn! I'm in deep shit. What am I gonna do?

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It's evening. I went to jinyoung's apartment to visit him.

"Daddy......." Lukas came running towards me as soon as he saw me.

I picked him up in my arms while laughing.

"So happy, aren't you?" I asked.

He nodded happily.

"I'll make something to eat for you." Jinyoung said ignoring my eyes.

"Nah! Don't make anything." I said.

"Let's go out and have dinner together. I mean me, Lukas and you." I added.

"Yeahhhh....." Lukas screamed in happiness.

I smiled at him ruffling his hair.

"But....Mark....I already have planning." He said hesitantly.

"What planning?" I asked.

"That....umm....Suga hyung invited me to go for a movie. And he probably will be here any minute now." He replied.

"Ohh" I said not knowing what else to feel about it. But inside this single 'ohh' thousands feelings were hidden. I'm feeling like I'm loosing him already.

"It's ok, you can go with Lukas" he said again.

I just nodded. Not trusting my voice anymore.

Just like that I ended up going out for a dinner with just my son.

Hey, at least I have my son with me. I should not feel this bad thinking about jinyoung.

But I'm not hungry anymore. I just watched Lukas happily eating whatever is on his plate.

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Jaskon was watching TV in the living room when I returned back home.

"Hey man, what's with the unhappy face.?" He asked as soon as he saw me.

"Nothing" I replied tiredly and went upstairs.

When I was about to enter my room Jackson stood in front of me making me to jump back a little with surprise.

"Wtf man" I yelled.

"Now tell me what's wrong.?" He asked sternly folding his arm on his chest.

"It's just....just....I'm feeling like I'm gonna loose him." I said almost in tears.

"You should stop thinking about loosing him." He said while pating my back.

"Anyways jaebum said he have some explanations to do. So you should talk to him later. For now, just take some rest." He said went back downstairs.

I wonders What explaining he have to do??

After taking a quick shower I decided to take a small nap. It's only 8pm.

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I looked at jaebum, waiting for him to say something.

After what felt like never ending silence he finally spoke up.

"Mark....Sorry about that night....."

What? Did he just apologized to me or is it just an acting again?

I stayed silent letting him to continue.

"I don't know if you're gonna believe it or not....but I love yungjae." He bluted out. Which got me shocked.

"What the fuck! Are you trying to get my forgiveness by telling me this." I yelled at him.

"It's not like this. Yes, I admit that, at first my intention was to make jinyoung mine again. But somehow, on the way I felt in love with youngjae. I started asking myself if I love jinyoung anymore. That kiss was needed, because that kiss made me realize that I don't love jinyoung anymore. Maybe that was effects of alcohol that I acted like a jerk even after that kiss." He explained.

I stared at him strangely, thinking whether to believe him or not.

"If you can't believe me, that's OK, I'll head back to korea right now, since you won't be comfortable being around me anymore." He said getting up from the couch.

"It's OK, you don't have to leave. I'll believe you this time. But next time, if you do something like that we'll be enemies for life." I said.

He smiled a little.

"And mark, you should confess to him again. Maybe he's waiting for it. You never know. Even if he rejected again, you won't regret it, because at least you tried when you have time." He said again before going back upstairs.

Maybe he's right. I should confess to jinyoung again. I'll regret it my whole life if I loose him just like this, without even trying.

I gotta do that.