Being Trapped In Emotions

Being In High School

Hi I'm.... Laura, Laura Anotomy I am a bit shy when it comes to people and other things. I never really thought I had a problem with myself until I realized that I would always end up in tears for some reason. I  went to a Therapist and well they said it was my emotions? I wondered  how and why it would be those but I knew he was right about it. He never really told me his name but I know I have another appointment again next week. He was nice and he understood me perfectly, my father and my mother don't really know about this kind of stuff. My sister Amber is really into her boyfriend now and well she doesn't wanna help me out at all. I am older than her and she already has a boyfriend. She's Fourteen and I'm Seventeen? How could that happen? But I guess because she's more of a people person than I am. My father is at his job right now. His name is robert but I call him my dad, Like who wouldn't.  My mother stays at home to keep an eye on me. Her name is Sarah but she doesn't like when any calls her by her real name. I have a lot of homework to do and I am almost out of high school soon. But I have my ways of getting things down it's just that I hate being to shy to do things it's quite stupid to me. I just wish I was like my sister but my mother hates when I say that. It's two more hours until my dad get's home and I am so Nervous. When he does something wrong at work or when someone does anything wrong in the house He get's angry really fast! I'm scared at what he's gonna come home like. Last time he came home and nearly broke the door into? it was crazy and we all had to calm him down... well me the others ran upstairs acting like they had something to do. I heard a car door and I looked out the window? It was my sister and her Boyfriend George. They have been going out since third grade! I don't know if it'll last long but I know that's way to long. She's smiling with her perfect hair and her perfect face and all that other perfect stuff But I think I look like a bum! why does she have the good looks and I don't? Why does she have the good life and I don't? Everythings just not fair to me anymore and well I don't know what else to do about it. Well my dad's home and I'm just gonna go cry about everything I can while listing to '' Am I here To Stay '' by my favorite singer in the world yeah it's a sad song too. My dad's yelling but not to loud and he's talking about  his friend Jarold messing  up at work. He had spilt car gas all over him on purpose? I guess they had a fight but they use to be the best of friends and how could he do something like that to him? Maybe he was just angry at something else and he just took it out on him. My dad was always the one to cheer me up when I'm done but nothing can do that now. I just have to cry it all out. ( Ten Crys Later) I had fell asleep and forgot that I was crying so much. My room was filled with water and it smelled salty. I hate myself sometimes I let everything get the best of me and well I need to take charge for it all. I will do something but not now I have to get dressed to go to school. I put on my Purple Blazer that I got from dad and My Brown shorts I got from mom On and some sandals. I grabbed my bookbag and ran down stairs. My mom was crying and had told me that her friends Grandma died and she had drowned my toast in tears. I was about to throw up from the way the toast looked but I hugged her and told her it was gonna be okay. She smiled and handed me My cell Phone. I ran out the door to my Friend Rebecca's car and My friend Jake was sitting in the back seat. He smiled at me then looked out the window. As I waved goodbye to my mother and her tears I gave her the sign to wipe them away, she did so and I drove off.  Rebecca- Why is your mom crying? Me- Because her friends Grandma died. Said right? Rebecca- yeah I know that happened to me once but it was my fathers dad who died he was an amazing man and he was always happy. Jake- Wow I thought this was a trip to school not a trip to Sad Memory lane? Me- shutup Jake I said laughing. We were just saying that it's sad to have someone Die but it was someone you loved Jake. Jake- Yeah Whatever. As we arrived to school She parked in her favorite parking spot as always The school was getting repainted and we had to go in through the back door. We got to a school called Thomas Jefferson high school. It's pretty big and we all act like were family to each other even everyone in class calls us sisters and brothers to each other! crazy right. I love my friends so much.