Being Trapped In Emotions

Being Cut

I seen them dragging a head? No body no nothing just a head and I thought it was a prank? Turns out it was actually someones head it looked like one of our oldest friends. Me- guys what is that and why it really stinks. I said as I covered my nose. Rebecca- It's Lulu. Me- Lulu who is .... Oh My Gosh what happened? did you guys do this how could someone do this to her she was an amazing girl to anyone why. Jake- Shutup we did this she was rude to us and never really wanted pur help it was always you who had aher friendship and all that other crap I hate this @#$%. Me- don't say that about her she was a wondeful person if you guys couldn't see that then there's something wrong with you. You guys just don't understand what this poor girl went through and you just ended her life why? I never in my entire life thought that my friends would be such a jerk to realize who they are and the people around them. How could you guys do this? what's wrong with you? I thought we were all friends and instead you guys just betrayed me  like this I hate this about you guys. Rebecca- No don't go putting that on us because if you were a real friend you would've understood why we did this it wasn't out of friendship it was out of hate your just caught up in your dumb life with your dumb feelings and dumb dad! Me- ( crying voice) My dad is not dumb and my life is not dumb I live in a world of people dying all the time even when I was little I lived through suffering and pain and anger and death and stupid stuff like that. That's stupid okay my life now is what it is and how I want it my dad has a lot to deal with and you just don't understand you never did. You can't hide anger and hate You take it and you get rid of it. You were never there for me EVER! you always thought of yourselfs well now I can't take it anymore I'm sick and tired of everyone hating on my father just because everythings your fault don't take things out on him take it out on yourselfs. Rebecca- Your just a real jerk you know that Laura and your just a poor dumb white trashy Idiot who doesn't even what life is! Your living ina  dream and a fake world well wake up because this is real life people die all the time it's part of life you just don't get it yet your just in love with your dad! well if you love him so much go date him cause I never liked you! you were stupid and to shy and a jerk and always this and that well take a hike because your heart is was wrong for you. Me- ( YELLING WITH ANGER) I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU! YOUR ALL ABOUT YOURSELF AND NO ONE ELSE YOUR NEVER NICE AND YOU MEAN HARM TO ANYONE YOU MEET. FINE TAKE YOUR DUMB STUFF BACK SEE IF I CARE BUT DON'T COME RUNNING TO ME SAYING I'M SORRY CAUSE I WILL  NOT TAKE YOUR FREAKIN APOLOGIE EVER!. They stopped talking and walked to their car. I just can't believe this and I;m just so done with them right now. Killing a poor girl for a dumb reason was the stupidest this they have ever done. I called my dad to tell him what happened  and right before I did Jake had came behind me  threw my phone, took a Butcher Knife slit  half My throat , cut my arm and moved me in the street so that theu could run over the back of my legs with their Jeep. I was in pain I couldn't speak and I Was wishing my father came to rescue me. They drove away and I was still in the middle of the street! Twenty Cars ran over me and I was still alive! I couldn;t scream and I couldn't move. My legs were numb and my arm was bleeding more than I thought with the help of my throat. It's been Ten hours and it's getting light outside and I'm still sitting in the middle of the road? cold and tired and waiting for someone to help me out and get me up off this road. My moms car is still here with me and I Can hear my phone ring froma  mile away. I wish I could reach it but I just can't get up. I guess I'm left here to die? I lived a good life? I lived for what I wanted? My dad is still okay what else could I Ask for right now. Nothing of course. My head has to talk for me and now I feel like I've been abandon which I am. Finally I hear an Ambuelance Truck coming anf I was saved! Thank you god is what I said in my head or at least just now. I can't feel them touch my legs but I can feel them on my arms. They all took me and out me in the back  of the truck safe and sound. One Guy worked on my arm before they left and the other girl had put a cloth on my neck to stop it from bleeding then they drove off. I can hear them saying your gonna make it, your gonna make it and That's when I knew I Was gonna be okay.