Being Trapped In Emotions

Me And Robert Tonight

My sister is downstairs distracting my mom and I have to sit up her and get ready to Make Love to my father which is weird to say for me, Especially for me. So I opened my door and he walked down the hall way and looked at me. Me- Hey! Dad- Hey I got something to ask you real quick? Me- Okay what? Then he started getting closer to me and I guess that's how it starts again. As he was about to ask me he didn't have to! we were both thinking the same thing and we just did it. I mean like we started kissing in the hall way and then we went to my room to do the rest. He pushed me down on my bed and got on top of me to do the rest of his magic. I didn't know if I should make a sound because we didn't have any music playing and well I think I would be loud. I hat that my bed makes a lot of sqeuaking noises and when it does that my mom always thinks I'm doing something nasty with someone ( which I am But it's not nasty) But that always makes her wanna get up and go upstairs. I hope my sister is doing a good job on distracting her because Right now I can't control what I'm feeling. My dad always puts me in that mood where my moods and my emotions go from worried and curious to I love what your doing right now and don't stop. I can't think straight anymore. This is like... getting way outtta hand for me. I have to beat this feeling though. Why does he love taking control over my mind all the time. It's like there's a special button he pushed on me and now it's like it's set off and there's no way of stopping it at all. I wish he wasn't being so good right now. I can't stop describing detail and I hate that Because I need to stop. I look at my window and I can see rain falling down slowly and beautifly. It looks so good outside that you could just go out there and kiss in it. It has this wonderful sound to it like music mixed with beauty! I don't even know how that sounds but I kow it's perfect for now.  I never put curtins on my window but I know I should now. My dad may be a little old but right now he is younger than I ever imagined. Now I know how mom felt when she was doing this. He must of been really good to her because he's the same to me. His face getting all Sweaty and his hands starting to shake while they lie on my bed perfectly. His bottom lip sinking back into his mouth making it look like he's bitting his lip. His legs so long that they stretch all the way out to the end of my bed as it's againest the wall. They way my hands touch on his  lower back and softly caressing it up and down. The way he Thrust into me as we lay down on my bed giving the most and intense passion that could not even be stopped by many of people. But Now I'm forgetting that I even had a mom I feel we just got married and we're trying for a kid or something but I have to stop going into his wonderland and focus back on getting this over with and not being here until the morning. I can hear his little weeps in the my ear trying to come out louder but can't because of his low tone. Why oh why did I ever forget this was gonna happen. It's hotter than a room full of Male Models and Heaters in here? And the worst part is because it's cold outside but my window is closed! Gosh it's too hot in here both of us mixed within each other is just too kuch for my room to handle. It's12:00 Pm and I'm still her underneath My dad trying not ot moan so loudly. I can't believe this is happening again for the Fourth or fivth time or less in my life from when I Was a teenager. I Still kind of am but I'm just a little older than what I use to be But more mature. I have to remind myself to take a shower after this because I don't want his scent to be on me and my mom would smell it then beat me up for it. This is the best moment of my life to have to somene like My dad come and do this to me ( that's strange to say! let me rephrase that) This was a guilty dad for me because me and my dad are really in love and I have to hide it from my mom? Uggh I hate this. Dad- You okay Laura? ( He say's with a shaking voice) Me- Yeah I'm.... I'm fine  how bout you? Dad- yeah I'm more than fine. Me- So Umm Now that were talking I.... I... ( I can't even speak from the way he's doing me) I wanted to know.. Do you still do this to Mom? Dad- Umm Sometimes she ummm , Uhhhh turned into a virgin now she doesn't really kiss me anymore like she use too you know! Me- Oh well that makes sense. Dad- why'd you wanna know anyway? Me- No reason I just wanted to ask. Why oh why Must it be Me that has to feel more than guilty.