Being Trapped In Emotions

Based On You

It's 7:30  and I'm still trying to get home riding in Kevin's Car. He was a sweet person to me but now I have to go back home and back to my real problems I don't know if I'm going to see him again but I do know that when I do it'll probably be in a different state. He said he would be moving soon but I don't know when or where at all. I feel a a feeling of relief and yet Guilt in my head and welll Now I don't know what to think anynmore? I mean my dad is going to be happy to see me but when I see him I don't know if I will. My sister hardly helped me with saying I should sleep with both of them but I did what I had to do. Kevin- Can you explain to me why your dad doesn't like me? Me- Umm well I'm really not sure why he doesn't? I've been trying to figure that out for a long time. Kevin- Well I mean I didn't do anything wrong right? Does he think I'm going to take you away from him or something? Me- I don't know maybe but I knoe he does not need to feel that way about you or anything. Maybe I'll talk to him for you. Kevin- Thanks that means a lot to me Laura. I'm almost home and I still feel bad for leaving kevin? I mean maybe he wanted me to stay for a week but my dad want's me too? I don't know who or what I should do now. ( Ring, ring, ring, ring) My phone starts ringing and I answered it. ( Hello) Mom- I sweetie I was just making sure that your okay? are you? Me- Yeah I'm just fine mom I'm on my way home right now. Mom- Okay sweetie I'll see you then bye. Me- Bye mom. I finally get home and Kevin opens the door for me again. Me- Thanks kevin! Kevin- Your welcome! And thanks for coming home with me today it means a lot. Me- Your welcome! bye. Kevin- bye.  I walked in and my dad had fell asleep on the couch. I guess he was waiting for me and just got knocked out on the couch. I just Snook up the stairs and tried not to wake anyone well at least him. I opened up my door and my sister was sitting on my bed waiting for me?  Me- You scared me! what are you doing in here? Amber- welll I thought about what you said? You know about you and dad and well I really want you guys to have another baby? Me- WHAT?  look I know your probably in one of those phase's where you feel like you need another sibling who could look up to you but there's a thing called adoption? I won't do it I already almost got pregnant I do not want to do it again. Amber- Fine your right but Guess what mom told me? Actually I can't tell you Laura You'll just get mad at her or me? Me- what do you mean? you can tell me anything amber what is it? Amber- Well I just can't tell you this one okay I should'nt have brung it up! Me- amber you can tell me! Amber- no I'll wait and tell you soon enough okay you have to understand? Me- okay fine You can tell me soon enough but you have to  promise? Amber- I promise. So Like what about you and dad? I mean do you guys still like... love each other? Me- Maybe but I don't know? It's really hard to keep up with him for me and well I don't wanna let him go anymore? I think he seduced me that dad we did it? Amber- wow he has more powers then we thought right? Me- hahaha right!. Amber- So like now he's sleeping on the couch? Did you kiss him goodnight? Me- No I didn't. I didn't wanna wake him so I just snook up here for now. I know he'll come up here later. Where's mom at? Amber- she went out with someone? she didn't let me go to the door? she had me stay upstairs? But dad didn't see her sneak out. Me- Oh my gosh I wonder who it was? And you said dad didn't see her? Amber- yeah he was upstairs I think in your room adoring your stuff? Me- Weird? Amber- I know right but yeah she snook out with someone who had a attractive voice and he sounded like he was Running? Me- Ew that sounds awful but I bet it was the cop? Amber- Now that I think about it.. It Probably was? Me- Yep they always talk to each other.  How do you think they're gonna stay out? Amber- Probably just for today? she said she was staying over his house for the night. Me- Oh okay well that totally makes sense right? (  I siad winking) Amber- Yep it really, really does? ( she said in a sacastic voice and winking) Hehehe were too bad! Me- tell me about it. As I was putting my phone down  on my dresser I started putting my jacket away and steady talking to my sister about things. Amber- So like what if dad comes up here again? What do you think he'll do? Me- Don't know yet but I'm a little scared about it?