Being Trapped In Emotions

Being Eighteen

So I put on my White shorts, My Ruffled Blue top and my Wedges. It's such a cute outfit and I stayed in my room for a second. My friends still aren't here and I am getting so inpatient. My dad walks upstairs and  I smiled! He smiled back at me and then closed the door. He wanted to talk to me about something? Her Dad- Look Laura Your grwoing up to be a beautiful young lady and I can't wait to see who You'll marry when you grow up. You mean everything to me and I wish you the best for the rest of your beautiful life. I smiled back at my dad and told him thank you. He hugged me and I hugged him.... Then we kissed?!?!?! I know what your thinking oh it's just a family kiss or oh it's just on the forhead but no we actually had our lips  on eachothers he was so passionate about kissing me and I kissed him back? What should I do? What should I say? How would I tell anybody about this? Then I heard footsteps coming up the stairs? it was my mom. Mom- Laura, Laura you up there? We stopped kissing and he opened the door he said I was up there and then walked me down the stairs where my mom was. I hugged her goodbye while my dad walked me down the stairs. He stopped me at the door then snook in a little peck on the cheek. I waved goodbye to him and my friends arrived just in time. I was so happy to go and we headed to some kind club they said. My sister called me on my cell phone and said she had a present for me but she was gonna leave it at home. I told I wasn't there and she said that she would put it on my bed for me I thanked her and she hung up. My Friends said that I would be happy with what I see at this place they would take me two but I hope it's nothing about guys involed because I really don't want a boyfriend right now. Rebecca- were here! I looked around and there was a lot of boys? I just said I Did not want a boyfriend and she takes me somewhere with guys! I hate this. Now what should I do? I mean if I leave she might think that I hate this present and that I'm a Big Chicken? I really hate this. So she took me over to on eof them and his name was Roddrick? He was tough and really tall? He asked if I liked beer and I said no right away. The I met Tom and he was my skin tone and liked short girls I was taller than him and he walked away. After I met Tom here came another guy, his name was patrick and he loved big girls! I know I'm not his type because I'm a little chubby. Then I met someone named Kevin? He was not a date but he was there. I talked to him for a while about me and he told me about him. He was a very smart guy and I really liked him But the only problem was that he was older than me? Like way older maybe in his 30s but I still thought of him as a wonderful guy. I walked away telling him I had to go and smiled and hoped that we would meet again. As I walked away he stared at my butt? But then turned away like he wasn't. I don't know how to feel about that but he was very , very cute to me. As it turns 9:00 I went home with my friends they dropped me off and said they had to go and was in a hurry? I asked why and all they said was duty calls and someone passed? But they said two different things at the same time? I got worried and pretended that I didn't hear one of them. I walked away and all I heard was a deep Breath come out of their mouth as in relief of me not knowing something but I'll just keep walking. I walked through the door and mom and dad were Kissing on the counter! I was so grossed out that I pretended that I didn't see it. I wish I could unsee that in so many ways. I went up to my room and my sister called me from a mile away. She was asking where I was? I told her that I was out with my friends and that she did not need to be in my business. She had a little attitude and then Went back to talking to George on her computer. I always wondered what goes on with her and her boyfriend so I asked what she was up too. Amber- what does it look like I'm talking to my boyfriend duh. I looked back as if she was not talking to me, well what are you guys talking about? Amber- None of your business okay?Me- Okay but I'll tell mom and dad on you here I go? Amber- No, no Don't please I'll tell you? Me- Okay good cause I wasn't going down there anyways. Amber- Well please don't tell okay. Me - I promise Amber- are you sure? Me- yes I'm sure, Amber- okay well were talkig about.... about........