Being Trapped In Emotions

Being In High School

Sometimes my feelings take over my head and my body and it makes me feel like I Have no control what so ever? Honestly I think I do need to get it checked out and I Have learn how to control them. As me and my friends exit Engilsh we head to Chemistry. I have a lot of work to do and we all have an Essay today. I hate school so much it never really get's to my head none of these problems gets to my head. It's hard to maintain a normal life when My emotions want to get the better of me. It gives me Anxiety, Depression, Anger, Pain, Rage, Frustration and more. It's really awful to have and well I need to get over it fast because my friends won't take this and I know it. But I'm glad they accept me for who I am and not someone I'm not. I remember them like it was yesterday, We all had fun times. We met at a Coffe Shop. I was in line and they were behind me, The person in front of me was falling backwards and they moved me out of the way! the guy is okay he had just hit his back really bad, I wish I could've helped him but they pulled me out of the way to fast. But that day we laughed and that's how we met so easily.  But back to what ever I'm almost out of school and I only have one more class to go History and that's it. Lunch is calling and we all head to the you know what. My friends had bought food from a fast food place and we totally tore it up. It was really good and then we wet back to our last class. Finally school is over and we headed out to go somewhere else. You know the funny thing is because it's the summertime And I still have school? is that crazy or what I mean shouldn't it be summer break as in Take a break from school? they must be late to know that. As we all went somewhere they said they had to drop something off real quick. I do feel curious about this but at the same time I don't know If I should. It was really weird but then I had to let it go. We drove to the mall after they came back and we had so much fun! I bought like Twenty T-shirts and tank tops, Plus I got like Ten pairs of shoes and Three dresses! it was all to much but I carried it all home. I had an awesome time with my friends and they made my mood much better than I thought. They drove me home and reminded me about the last day in school! I was turning eightteen tommorow and everyone could not wait. I can't wait to gradute and got ot college. I walked through the door and my dad was sitting on the couch watching His and my Favorite T.v Show Scandal. I love that show so much it has so much drama in it. I ran upstairs to put my things away and it took me like forever to do that then I ran down stairs to watch it with him. I love my dad so much more than anything but there's a secret I never told anyone? Ever. It is very big ad I have to keep inside myself for now I'll tell in the Tenth chapter it'll make sense then.  I sat next to him and he put his arm around me like I was his wife. Me and my dad have a very close relationship with each other and wel we mean a lot to one another. Well I bet not as close as him and my mom do but still it's pretty close. Anyways we couldn't get enough of this show it was so AWESOME! It's like Ten,o, Clock and were still up. But then I started to get tired and tried not to fall asleep. He was pretty tired to and he kept yawning while he was talking to me. He offered to tuck me into bed and then carried me upstairs, He was msiling at me and couldn't keep his eye's off me. When I finally got to my bed He pulled the cover up and got in to. I didn't mind I mean i's my dad It's not like were kissing or anything but he did take off his shirt and move closer to me but I don't mind not one bit. So like in Two hours until my b-day and I Can't wait to do fun stuff on my birthday it's gonna be awesome. ( 8:00 In the Morning) I wake up and my dad is getting dress, well putting on his shirt and taking me downstairs but this time he was holding my hand. I don't care it's my birthday and I Love anything right now My mom made me birthday breakfast then yelled Happy Birthday Sweetie! I was so happy and my dad shared it with me. My sister was out with her Boyfriend again and I bet you she's not gonna give me a present. But I don't care about that either My friends texted me and said that they would pick me up for a birthday surprise and would see me In Ten. I needed to get dressed and head out.