Being Trapped In Emotions

Leave Behind

I see him walk out the room and I have huge tears coming out of my eye's? I wanted im to stay with me  I don't wanna be alone by myself but I guess It's for the best of me growing up and living with out my dad sometimes. I hope he brings my phone thought so I can text him and my sister. Oh My Gosh! I just forgot I have the birth control pills and stuff on the kitchen counter!? What if mom came home already and see that? I Hope she thinks it's for her even though it's not. The doctor comes back in the room with me, Doctor- So what happened out there with you? Me- Umm well I was taking some pills and I was okay then..... Doctor- Then what Sweetie? Me- Then I just threw up for no reason? Doctor- Well Let me tell you what happened for real with you? Me ( what ) Doctor- You were having sex so many times with your father and you completely lost it when You kept getting it over and over and over again, You thought about how it would effect your life and you tried to do something about it? After you did something about it , it was the wrong something and so you ended up here with me in the hospital? Me- How did you know all that ( I said in a Mad but crying voice) Doctor- If I know right From wrong then I know you from your father I know all My patients well But the story to this just does not add up at all. Me- what do you mean? Doctor- How many guys have you slept with young lady? Me- First of all it's grown lady and second of all only two is there something wrong? Doctor- Yes very wrong and I am Not going to tell you. Me- Why not I mean I should know these things? Doctor- yes Indeed but not this one this stays a secret to you and public to your father. Me- Oh My Gosh I should've said one because I forgot that I slept with his friend? My Dad would freakin  kill me if I said that to him. And the doctor already left so now I'm all alone and I can't even Get Up! I hate my life right now.  So I look out the hospital window and my dad's car is back? I don't want him to know about what happened between me and Kevin I'll be praying that he won't know. I hear him and the doctor talking outside the Hospital room I'm in and I get really hyped as in I'm really freaking out that he would tell him that I slept with his friend? I don't wanna keep it a secret but I don't wanna tell the truth? What should I do!? As he walks in I screamed! Me-( Ahhhhhh) Dad- Hey, hey calm done it's just me okay I'm here for you. Me- Please don't be mad, please just please don't be mad at me it was an accident dad I swear? Just pleae don't yell at me. Dad- Yell at you for what? Me- ( Taking a deep breath) I slept with your best friend Kevin?! Dad- What? Me- Dad but it wasn't suppose to happen I didn't mean to okay? I'm sorry but it's not kevins fault please don't blame him? Dad- I'm Not Mad? Me- Really? Dad- NO I'M FURIOUS! YOU SLEPT WITH SOMEONE I TOLD YOU NOT TOO YOU DISOBEYED MY RULES AND YOU HURT ME! LAURA I TRUSTED YOU AND I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING AND YOU TAKE THAT ALL AWAY FROM ME!  (Nurses come in)  Someone just got shot?!!! Me- what! Dad you habe to go look I can't get up at all, please go look? He ignored me and went to go see who it was that got shot? I wondered if telling him was the right hing to do and well I guess it wasn't for me? But I have to face what's right for the first time and now I feel relieved! even thought he's gonna come back and yell at me again. As I wait and wait and wait he finally came back in? He had a calmer face but not because he was sorry  to me because he was sorry for the person who got shot. He finally talked to me though in a lower calmer voice but I know he was still mad. Dad- It was Carter? Me- What? Dad- someone shot him their on there doing surgery now but I'm not sure if he's gonna make it? but I don't know who did it I'm gonna have to ask but just don't talk to me anymore, Okay Laura. Me- Dad, robert come back please. Well now what do I do? I mean I'm stuck in the hopsital  and  I don't have my phone and I don't have my sister here with me to talk? I wish my life was going back to the way it use to be when me and my dad use to just be together and my mom would always be in the house and my sister  use to talk to me a lot but now I don't really remmber anyone anymore and it's like we don't even  know each other? Why must I be so wrong at making things right for my life.