Being Trapped In Emotions

Today's The Day

It's te day she finally comes out of the hospital and everyone is very excited to see her and know that she's okay. As they see her walking out she role's her eye's and pretends she doesn't know them at all. She didn't wanna do that but she had too? she didn't like that she never told them where she was going that night and she didn't like that it seemed like they didn't care. But she's mad at herself too. They tried to talk to her but she just didn't listen to them. She didn't wanna her it at all. After what she's been through all she wants is sleep right now. So I'm walking away from my parents and my sister right now and I swear I feel like someone's about to smack me in the back of my head. I hate getting like that sometimes, But it's only because they never really seemed there for me at all and well I hate myself for being stupid enough to say yes when My friends called. They use to be good people but I guess people don't grow up like how you want them too. My dad... My day and I have a weird bond with each other and I hate to tell my mom about it but I have to it's the only way to make everyting right. I'm tired of telling lies and hiding from myself and blocking the world out. It's time I Speak up and let everyone know who I am for once, Not who I'm not. So as I turn around in the parking lot waiting for them in the dark cold weather I start talking like I didn't even have a brain. I was yelling and crying and just saying things I  never thought I would. I didn't tell my mom about me and my dad yet because it's too public in the parking lot and you never know who could be watching. But anyways I did tell them that It was rude for them to just not even worry about me when I was out but then I ad forgot that my little sister was in even  more danger than me. I apologized and then just sat down on the cold parking lot Concrete. My dad sat next to me and held my hand for the longest he was telling me that I was a young and beautiful girl and that he or the rest of the family would never forget me and wish anything bad on me. I guess that makes sense because I wasn't really clear on where I was going that night. Well sometimes things work out and then they don't but for now I just wanna go to sleep. We all got in the car. I was In the back seat with my sister, and my parents were in the front seat. My  mom was driving thought. Then a police car showed up at the parking lot? My mom got out and went to go talk to him to see what he wanted. It was Carter Again. I was worried and scared and well Curious about what they were talking about. My dada started  asking me about how and what happened with me and my friends? I told him I didn't wanna talk about it but then I told him anyways. Me- Look... what happened that night was something I never thought would happen to me at all. I was alone and scared and my friends were just some kind of killer I guess. My dad's face was so curious that it actually looked like he was imagining how it all happened. Me- My friends were trying to hide this girls head in the water and asked me to help them? It was... was someone I knew and I just couldn't do it. They had cut her head off her own body and I was...... I was so sorry for her! they said it was because she wasn't their friend but I told them How stupid it was to do that to someone. They started yelling at me like I had said they were ugly and I yelled back. They mad me so mad and I had to say something and so I did. After that I was trying to call you guys to come get me and I felt someone behind me? It was Jake! He had a knife and he had cut my throat and my arm really bad! Then they pulled me in the street and...... and ( Crying) Robert- Sweetie it's okay you don't have to finish. I know your upset about what happened and I know how you feel when you don't have no one there for you but Everyone Prayed for you at home, hopeing that you would come back on your own. Your eighteen or nineteen and you know what to do and what not. I'm sorry.... were sorry we couldn't be there for you and I really wish that didn't happen to you I don't.... we don't wanna see you dead and neither does anyone else around this town Okay? Me- Yeah, Yeah Thanks dad your always making me feel better. My dad told me to climb up in the front seat with him and give hima hug. I felt like my little sister instead of the big one. He hugged me as if he was gonna lose me again? My leg in between his thighs, His arms on the lower part of my back, Me having my arms around his little neck and my Butt On His Private. I was really big compared to the small car we were riding in. The seats went all the way down like into the ground and I think we were riding my dads car. His car will always smell like Men Axe Body Wash and Cigarettes.