Being Trapped In Emotions

Being Eighteen

We were talking about Sex okay Laura? Me- what why would you do that your only fourteen and your talking about sex? Amber that's what not to do you get kidnapped this could be a trap do you know how much trouble your in? Amber- I know but he wanted to do it and he said if I don't then... Me-then what , what amber? Amber- Then he would kill me! Me- what he can't do that to you but why would.. Amber- I know but it's just that he's agressive and I'm too nice and I guess he thought he could take advantage me like that I'm sorry. Me- Look amber I said to you last year that if you ever find a boyfriend like that than get help? Right now You have to get help from mom and dad okay No one in this family or outside this family want's to see you get hurt understand? Amber- Yeah I do okay I'll tell them but I don't want to get hurt by them either. Me- trust me you won't okay you just have to get him out of your life. How old is he anyways? Amber- He's Seventeen! Me- you mean he's not fourteen like you how long has this been going on ? Amber- A long time I forgot to tell somebody. Everyday I go out with him You guys Probably think I'm on a date? No I'm really not I get torchered and beaten and raped by him?! He never treated me with resepct he only wanted my body and sex from me and I'm sorry I never told okay Laura I'm sor.... Me- why are you crying amber? Amber- Because I see how bad this is now, I never meant for it to go this far I never should of found him I hate myself. Me- Now amber I know you did wrong but please don't beat yourself up. You are a strong and smart young girl you just didn't know okay don't cry my and dad will help you out with this don't worry. And sometimes you have to make sure your responsible enough to take action and be mature don't let your guard dwon to anyone but to who you love... your family. Amber-  ( Sniffling) Okay thanks Laura your the best sister ever I'll go tell mom and dad. As she walked the down stairs I ran to my room I had to put all my clothes that I bought early away you know the ones from the day my show was on. Yeah last time I just stuffed theem in the closet now I have to seriously put them away. As I do that I can hear mom and dad yelling at her for what she did. But she has to learn how to take that when you grow up things aren't really what they seem. I been there before and trust me it was so much worse. I gave her encouragement and I hope that worked because being a bigger sister isn't really all that easy for me. My phone buzzes and it's my friends. They asked what I was doing and where I was? I said at home doing my clothes why. They said theyu had a problem and they wanted my help? Well I don't you guys theis seems like a lot of things your up to and you want me to come and help? They both said hurry and told me where they were then hugn up. I wonder what they did now. As I was going to the front door My Dad had stopped me for a second to ask questions or at least something like that? he said he wanted to talk to me in private for a minute. Me- Yeah dad. Dad- Look... I been thinking  about  what happened between us And it's been a long time since we..... since we ummm? Me- Yeah I know what your talking about I know it wasn't suppose to happen but Things happen that you can't control right? You have to realize that it was last year back in our past I was younger and you were a little younger too. We have our ways of getting out of things. I choose not to remember it and you choose to talk about it I get it. I love you dad and I will never do anything to make you feel upset or mad at me and you know that. I believe that you love mom and I know you really love me more than ever But I'm really not sure if you should bring this up okay? Dad- Yeah I totally understand that but I really was gonna say that.. Me- Dad I Really have to go somewhere with my friends if you don't mind can I go please? Dad- Yeah , yeah sure you can go I was just gonna say that.. Me- Thanks dad I love you then I kissed him on the cheek. He siad Bye and I left as quickly as I could I know what he was gonna say and I need to talk to him about that when My mother and sister leave for the weekend. As I drove my mothers car to my friends I saw them at the park? They were by the water and it was really dark and cold outside. I wore my Pjs with my slippers and my hair down But I wrapped my arms arond my self as if someone was hugging me. They called me over to where they were.