Being Trapped In Emotions

Needed You More

It's only 8:45 now and I'm still up? I can't get to sleep even though his bed is really comfortable and well He's making it better for me. But I just can't shut my eye's and go to sleep. So I turned over to look at the window he had where I was and I stared at the dark blank sky. No stars or no moon just dark and blank. He's sleeping like a baby while I stay up like a clock. Why can't I get to sleep.  I don't wanna wake him up so I just sneak out the bedroom door. I walk to the bathroom and try to get my mind off things. My sister left her door open when she fell asleep so I just closed it for her.  I had looked in the mirror and then washed my face to see if that helped... ( but It didn't) So then I walked down stairs and got a snack and something to drink. Some left over food and some water. I wonder how he can get to sleep and I can't? Maybe it's because I feel a little guilty and bad but I shouldn't I should be perfectly happy and okay It's nothing. After I sat down and ate my food I was gonna sneak back up the stairs But then I seen something? Something I have never seen before? It was a piece of paper lying on the living room floor? It was hiding under the bookshelf we had. I could see it from when I was sitting on the kitchen stool. I walked over to see it and It was Something I did not Believe at All?..... The paper said...''' If your reading this, Then you must be the parents or Laura Anotomys Little sister. This Is the paper of Laura Anotomy's Adoption Papers? (  Me- What? Adoption?) The parents Sarah Anotomy and Robert Anotomy are the Parents of Laura Anotomy and Birth Parents of Amber Anotomy? Adopted: Febuary 3rd Monday. Me- This whole Time I was adopted and no one ever told me? I knew there was something going on and I just knew thatI never looked like my parents. Maybe that's why Me and My dad Never really Left each other? Or should I say My foster dad. I hate this? Why didn't anyone say I was adopted? Why did I ever think that I was actually Apart of this family as an actually family memeber. After I stopped reading the rest of the paper I heard someone walk down the steps. I put the paper away in the couch and sat there watching a blank, black screen. Dad- Hey what are you doing down here? Me- Oh Nothing I just wanted to watch something real quick. Dad- But your not watching anything? Me- Yeah I know I meant to say I wnated a snack, I ate it and now I just wanted to sit on the couch for now. Dad- Well you need to ome back up to the bedroom and relax.You need to get some sleep it's 9:00 and you do not need to be up alone. Me- Okay dad I'll go with you but can you tell me something real quick thought? Dad- Sure what? Me- Am I Adopted? Tell me the truth now dad? Dad- Sweetie Let's not talk about this right now You need to go to ... Me- Tell me Dad Am I Really Adopted? I can't go if you don't tell me? Dad- Look... When you were little Your real mother died? She was sick and couldn't keep you? I know that because I use to date her and well She didn't want you to grow up alone and around her while she was dying so she told me to take you from her. The next dad she died and you were with me. You came into our family when Your Foster sister Amber was about to be born, And you grew up with us ever since then. I'm sorry we never told you but You never asked?  and which no one wants to know that they were adopted by someone else. It's not a bad thing that your adopted it's just that your mom could not take care of you So we did. Please don't be mad at us. Me- But all you ad to do was tell me? I want to know everything in this family ans that's the main thing I needed to know? You never really cared about me this whole time? Dad- Sweetie it's not like that I love you no matter what, Just because your adopted that doesn't change anything? Your still my girl and your still ambers sister? nothing's changed about you. Me-  I just wish you would've told me Your the main person who cared about me more than anyone And I trusted you even more? So your not my real dad your just a stranger? Dad- Technically I am your dad but not really but I can asure you that I am not a stranger? remember me and your real mom use to date and that makes you mine. You never really had a real dad there for you beside me. Your real dad left you for someone else. I just took care of you better than he did. Me- Okay well I forgive you but I just can't believe this all happended today ..to me? Dad- You need a hug? Me- Please? ( They hugged) then they walked back up the the bedroom to go back to sleep.