Being Trapped In Emotions

Based On You

Me- I  umm..... well he... I don't know what to say anymore amber? Amber- well that's okay Maybe he'll just come up here to have sex again? you know he will. Me- maybe he's just so unpredictable theses days? Amber- Tell me something I don't know. Me- I'm gonna go change into my Pj's now I'll be right back. Amber- Okay I'll be in my room. As I walked to the bathroom to change my dad was coming up the steps. I had stopped to talk to him and all he could say was That he was glad I was Back? Me- thanks that means so much coming from you dad. Dad- Your the best person I have ever met? I love you sweetie. Me- Thanks!... look I have to change why don't you go get some rest in your room? Dad- Well Your gonna be in there right? Me- Dad I have'nt slept by myself in years? I need to I have to learn how to anywhays because If I grow up thinking that someone always has to sleep next to me I'll be ruined and that will scar me for life? Dad- Sweetie that's not gonna happen and which you'll end up marrying someone anyways? You'll have to sleep next to someone? Me- I know that? What I'm trying to say is that We need to be away from each other just for today? Please? Dad- Well  I guess I could do that but can we just kiss for like Two minutes. Me- Dad look I love you and all but we really need to back up from this relationship? It's going to fast for me I'm only eighteen ad well I almost got Pregnant? I don't wanna have a baby yet? We can kiss and do other things later but right now I need to fix my life? This is not how I want it to be? I don't wanna have to hide anything from anybody anymore dad? You can do that but I can't go on like this. We need to just be daughter and Dad not, Dad and Daughter wife or something? Please, Don't get me wrong I love what you give me but I need to love myelf for now.  Dad... your the best person to and for me but I want us to go back to just pretending all this didn't happen? Trust me it'll be better this way and well I have to find someone my age? Your not old and your not dumb I'm just not ready to go on like this? It's been three years or eighteen years for me when I had to accept the fact that my day has been having sex with me since I was ten to sixteen? We have to end this now and forever you have a wife? I know she may not care about you and I do but you have to get her too? Don't let me replace who you had your kids with. Dad Your just gonna have to see that with your own eye's? I can't keep telling you this. I want to thank you so much and I want you to be okay with that and not just alright with it. You have to understand and when you do and when I get my life right I swear I will come right back to you and ask you to be next to me for the rest of my life. Your the one who gave me wat I needed and your the one who always made me feel so much better about myself, You did that dad by being dad not being my husband? I love you either way but you have to fix your life and I have to fix mine? and we have to work together to get it perfect. Dad- Wow! Your words are amazing Your so right I'm sorry for all of that I just .. you were more there for me than my own wife? She kicks me out of bed all the time and sometimes she brags about  me to her friends in a bad way? I never thought that she would be cheating on me or anything but now I have to assume that she is? I Just thought you were gonna be the next her because your growing up so  fast and well I'm missing it all in the blink of an eye? Your more of a wife to me than my own wife? You took care of me and was always there for me and always gave me what I needed? I love you more than anyone and anything! That's why I always wanted to be next to you and love you and take care of you like you use to do to me? I wanted to repay what you gave to me Love! You gave me all of that and I wanted to give it back! I need you more than anything Laura Young or not I don't care age is nothing but a number to me? Your more of a grown up then she is to me? I shouldn't be talking about her like that but your just better than what she is?  I thank god that I have you everyday! Laura I don't wanna lose you that's why I'm always calling and checking up on you because your more like a wife to me! I can't go on without you and I need you more than you'll ever know! Sweetie I don't mean to act this way on purpose?