'Never Again' (Jack Gilinsky)

39. Little Talks

39. Little Talks

** The Next Day **

Jack's P.O.V.

I figured out that it's time to finally resolve everything. I let Jack know everything I'm about to do and how I'm going to do it. He wishes me luck and hopes everything goes alright. I want to just get this over with. I'm not sure where Alana can be so I guess I'll walk around campus to where she might be. She could either be in her dorm, the library, the fountain, or in the cafeteria. I walk around to all of the places but don't see her anywhere. 'Hmm that's weird.. Where could she be?' I thought. I try to walk and find her more but I don't see her anywhere. I decide to go the field where it's I know I can be alone. Nope I was wrong. As I'm walking to the field, I see Alana sitting at the farthest bleacher. I wonder what she's doing here. I try to walk up to quietly and sit down next her. I was only a few feet away from her. I took a deal breath and sat next to her. She didn't even bother to look at me, she just payed attention to the field.

"Long time no talk.." I started off hoping that would ease the tension. No response.. Ok this is going to be harder than I thought.

"Look Alana.. Can we just talk?" I ask sounding quite demanding.

She says still looking at the field,"What is there to talk about?"

"Everything.." I reply with.

"Ok I'm listening.."

"Alana I know I didn't talk to you the first week and I'm sorry. There's a reason for the way I've been acting.." I said softly.

"Can I ask the reason?" She was so quiet and shy. She still never bothered to look at me. It's like she was a different person.

"I didn't want to get distracted by you.. I didn't to get feelings for you and then back out of asking Leigh out. I wanted to be with her and once I saw you I knew I was going to fall for you again.." I said hoping she would understand.

"Oh.. I understand that part. But there's something I don't quite get.."

"And what is that?"

"If you really liked Leigh.. um then you wouldn't be afraid to fall for anyone else but her," She started,"And if you couldn't of talked to me in person then you should've texted me.. like I said at graduation.." She got up and walked away. She had every right too. She was upset and hurt. She had a point though. A point that always stuck in my mind.

"Alana wait.." She stopped but didn't turn around. I continued,"Why do you still have the bracelet?" She quickly grabbed her wrist holding on to the bracelet.

"Because it's the only I have left of you that I'm able to call mine.." Once she said it hurt like a ton of bricks. It was one thing to keep the bracelet but it's another thing to say that. She walked away, but she never looked at me once. I couldn't take this. I ran up to her and grabbed her arm.

"Alana just please wait.." I said.

"Why.." She asked sadly.

"Why won't you just look at me?" I started to get hurt.

"Because if I look at you then all the thoughts of you and Leigh will come to mind and I don't want to see those images." She stated that very firm.

"But I'm not with Leigh.. I'm just Jack. Sane old Jack from November at homecoming." I pleaded to her. She slowly turned around. Finally.

"That's the problem.. Your not the same old Jack. You've changed," She started to tear up a little bit. "You've changed the way you run your life. You have a girlfriend now. And it seems like you've forgotten and stopped caring about everything that was once apart of your life!!" She yelled at me with full force crying. Of course I started crying too. I was confused by what she meant.

"Name of example of something I don't care about anymore!" I yelled.

"Me." She said. Oh. I didn't think she felt that way. Jack was right. I did stop caring for her. I thought that there was no reason to care for someone who was no longer apart of your life.

"Alana.. I never meant to hurt you. I just thought you pushed me away so I did the same." I calmed down.

"You always think stuff and you never really know the truth." What she just said was true and I knew that.

"Alana, I'm sorry.." I said truly meaning it.

"You've said that to me too much now and I'm tired of it," Alana said. She was right. This has got to be the millionth time I've said that to her.

"You're right..but I have nothing to say but I'm sorry," I said hoping she'll forgive me.

"I'll forgive you. But I won't forget it."

"Alana.. One more thing. I never stopped loving you, I might've stopped caring but never stopped loving.." I said sadly.

She replied with,"I'll always love you too but I'm not the one you should be saying that too." With that she walked away.