Her Heart (1/3)

Chapter 5

Caroline's POV

A month later

"Caroline, you better get up." i hear the voice that is clearly not Ashley's.

Ashley went on maternity leave a month ago and my heart broke when i learnt about her short departure.

"Yes mom I'm going to shower." i say to the she-devil.

I laid back down on my bed hating the thought of me having to go to school again.

Although it's been a month since that horrible, horrible incident, i still relive it everyday. Kim of course told the entire school how i declared my undying love for Jeremy and how stupid i looked. My 5 minutes of fame were up and now i was just hated on even more.

If i wasn't facing enough problems at school, i had to come home to this shit hole.

The problems started with my step mother. Everything was perfect a few years ago, I mean I'm the first born so that meant I was going to take over the throne, not all that bull about you having to be a male to take over, you? Life was peaches. But as the years went by, my younger sister started growing and she was learning new things each day, way too much for her age.

My mom started giving her more attention totally forgetting about me and my baby brother, so as the first born I was forced to take over from my mother so that my brother could be taken care of, since Lisa clearly couldn't.

Did she bother to ask if we ate? No. Did she bother to ask if my bother and I actually went to school after getting up? No. Did she bother to encourage us to do better or be happy for us like other parents did when they saw their children's report card? No. The attention and support was always directed to the golden child.

But i was happy that despite the circumstances, my siblings and i had a good relationship. Dad told me to always put family first because one day, when the world is against me, I'll always have family at the end of the day. Clearly Lisa didn't get that message.

But it's okay. When I become queen, I'll make sure my brother is my number one priority, just like he has always have, not implying that I'll treat Brittany any different, but i want to create an environment where both of them are loved equally.

What about my father you ask? Well he isn't always around to see all the bullshit my mom gets up to, because he is always working. But the few minutes my dad comes back to spend with us, meant the world to me because he made me feel loved again, he made me feel like a kid again even though I'm 18 years old.

He always made me feel like I was his little princess and that meant the world to me. I long having a mother, someone I could talk to when I had boy problems and other girl problems but as usual, I had to stay strong and handle things on my own, even if i didn't know how.
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After school I waited patiently for my brother to return from school so he could tell me all about his amazing day.

The door to my room finally cracked open and my little bundle of joy walked in looking like quite the opposite.

"Hey Kev."

He just looked up at me and forced a smile onto his face.

"Hey what's wrong?" i ask squatting to be at eye level with him.

"A boy named Charlie pushed me onto the floor very hard and he laughed at me. It hurt very bad." he said looking at the ground. "He also made fun of the fact that I'm coloured." he added the last part.

I listened to my brother tell me what happened to him today as he was very close to crying. My heart broke listening to my 10 year old brother.

When I was his age and got bullied, I remember telling my dad and he would march to the principles office and remind him just who we are. But because of the current situation...i had to do something, but I didn't know what to do. I've never been in this kind of situation so I did the only thing I knew and have taught myself over the years.

"Hey Kevin look at me..."

He's blue eyes looked into mine.

"I know you're sad and angry but there's something you need to know about this world... just because you're of royalty, doesn't necessary mean things will happen the way you want them to. If you want something done you gotta do it yourself. Remember, they can knock you off but they will never knock you out. Never let them see you cry."

"And also, there's nothing wrong with being colored." i continue. "Im coloured too, and to be honest i love it. We get to be part of 2 beautiful cultures and heritages, so like getting the both of best worlds."

I see a small, almost unnoticeable smile on his face, "you can't even speak zulu and you've never in been to South Africa, not even once." he whispers.

I chuckle. "I'm working on it."

"So what must I do to him?"

"What do you want to do?"

I saw my brother's face brighten mischievously a little.

Did I give my brother good advice? Well, yes and no but what else would you tell your baby brother? I was an eighteen year old raising a ten year old, i had no idea what the fuck i was doing.
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After dinner, I took my brother to bed and made sure he was sleeping peacefully.

And again like every other dinner we have, mom and her trophy daughter sat at the far end of the table while I enjoyed dinner with Kevin on another far end. We made jokes and I shared some stories with him.

I went to my room and I took a quick shower before I went to bed, and I just felt a lot better at the thought that today was finally Friday.

I took it upon myself to start getting self defence classes in order for me to be able to take care of not just me but my brother as well, even though I'm a Vampire, Its just not enough. It's really not safe being a female in this world.

I was excited to be starting with the lessons tomorrow morning with my new instructor Ashley helped me find.

I missed her so much.

Just as I was about to go to bed, my mother walked in my room...and hell no, she didn't knock.

"Uhm I was about to go to bed mom." i say, thinking she'd yell at me for not being in bed by this hour.

"I don't care what you do. Look Brittany is going to need someone to take her to her extra classes and I want you to take her."

"But mom I have-"

"Caroline I don't care! Take Brittany. I have things to do."

"Why though? She doesn't need extra classes shes smart, as you're always reminding us."

"Yes she is, because if you were just as smart as her, you would shut that big mouth and just agree." 

Then she left my room.

After I was sure she was gone, I curled myself into a ball and I just let the tears fall. I started thinking about poor Kevin and how Brittany is the lucky child in the family and how me and my brother are just pushed aside whenever my father wasn't home.

I missed my father each day that passed and every night I would just let my tears fall because even though im strong, I'm still human, with feelings.

At the end of the day, I'm still a kid. I'm still a girl, so every night was a normal routine. Crying myself to sleep because i will never be good enough in her eyes, no matter how hard i tried, no matter what i said or did.

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Its not as long as the others but i gave just enough information for one chapter.

Who knew this was Caroline Parker's real life?

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