Her Heart (1/3)

Chapter 19

Being a princess to the King family was no joke. I had duties to fro upon, which always took up most of my day and had me exhausted.

It was an hour before dinner and I just freshened up before i had dinner with Jeremy, who still wasn't home. 'Work' must have him occupied.

I've been thinking about my siblings on most days, missing them dearly. However, we were able to keep in touch through phone calls and texts. I had just texted them a goodnight before i put my phone away. I hardly had time for it anymore because i was so busy. Besides, it's not like it was blowing up with messages because i only talked to my siblings. So you can say that my social life was pretty much dead, as young as i am.

I also sent Ryan a text. I know i said 'it was the last straw' amd all that, but i really did miss him. Although i had everything a girl could only dream of, i felt selfish because i felt there was something missing in my life, or a someone rather.

It was hard not to think about him. Everything reminded me of him. I couldn't watch tv without The Simpsons coming to mind, his favorite cartoons. I couldn't eat without thinking of cheesecake, his favorite dessert. I couldn't be driven around without thinking of a BMW, his favorite car. Everyday i got dressed, i couldn't help but remember his love for Nike. I would sometimes try to visualize his outfit for the day.

Sometimes i couldn't listen to music without remembering how the one time he made me sneak out so we could have a late night drive. I blush every time I think about that night. That was the closest we've ever been. Drake and Rihanna's take care was our song. Words we hadn't uttered to each other but knew deep down that that's how we truly felt about each other. And every night, I'd stupidly go through his photo album i had created on my phone like a obsessed fourteen year old. I just keep hurting myself further.

Im sure word spread that Jeremy and I had wed, but he didn't bother to come to our wedding like i expected, let alone call or anything. I know it's a little far fetched to expect him to come to the wedding but I mean all has been said and done, Jeremy was his best friend. I thought at least he'd be there to show his support. If not for him than at least for me. I feel like that just confirmed how done he was with me. I was angry though, he didn't even give me a chance to explain how the whole stupid wedding idea came about.

But i had to face reality and remember that the only reason he was hanging out with me in the first place was because he needed help with improving his marks. And now that he is done with school-and did exceptionally well-He really doesn't need me anymore.

My thoughts were interrupted by 7 women who walked in my room, including Sarah.

"What is it that you want? You are disturbing my peace." i said.

These ones can drain the life out of someone. It hasn't really been long but Sarah has officially been associated with anything that will bore, annoy or irritate me.

"Well your majesty, these ladies are here to help you get ready for the ball." she says looking at the young ladies.

"Yes, of course there's yet another ball my husband didn't tell me about." i said rolling my eyes in a bored tone.

A 'ball' really meant this was Jeremy's opportunity to parade me around so i make him look good. 

"Im sorry Princess King, i wasn't aware that you didn't know about the ball tonight." she said apologetically.

Sarah has noticed that i had wanted nothing to do with being in this castle and being married to Jeremy. As a result, i automatically don't like everyone and everything in this castle because all of it, all of them, remind me of my freedom that was taken away from me due to greedy reasons.

"Address me as anything besides that or anything that associates me with that name. Understood?" my pureblood asks them nicely.

"Prince Jeremy gave us strict instructions to address you as-"

In a flash, my pureblood was in her face, holding her up by her neck. Oh look at that, her first encounter with her. "I dont care what that pathetic excuse of a King says. I say DO NOT ADDRESS ME AS SUCH!" she screams in her face, fangs on display and ready to deliver the blow if she dares goes against her.

"I hope i have made myself clear. And that goes for all of you." I say to all of them after dropping Sarah's body like it was lifeless.

After she had collected herself and tried her best not for fall apart in front of me, my vampire had retreated but was watching from a distance. Now that she was gone, i felt bad for how i treated Sarah. I had no control over my pureblood, i was still getting to know her so i know how far i can go in terms of taming her and Sarah was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Although i did feel bad for her, i wasn't going to show it. Father always said that's how you dominated. If you looked like you had feelings, it was obvious that you had a weakness, and weaknesses got you killed.

This man had an entire family, he automatically had weaknesses, but hey... I let him preach.

Although i had calmed down hours ago, the 'glam squad' was still under the impression that my vampire side was still very much alive. They nervously prepared me for the ball, careful not to do anything that might make me lose it again, since that was easy to do lately.

Despite how nervous they were for the past four hours, they more then excelled in making me more beautiful than I already was.

As i sat in my room after they had left, i looked into the mirror and the person who stared back wasn't the Caroline i knew. This Caroline was grown, older, beautiful. Powerful. Dominance radiated from her and she commanded respect. She fed on other's fear and weaknesses. She was new to me, foreign... Scary. But i loved her.

I then headed downstairs were Jeremy was waiting for me in a dashing black suit that could be seen that it was custom made with expensive material from a mile away. He too looked like a true King and he wasn't even wearing his crown.

As I was coming down, I could feel Jeremy's eyes roam my body slowly up and down. It excited me that i was exciting him this way. To think homeboy could have had all of this ages ago, but it is what it is.

'Come on Caroline. Don't fall. Don't fall. Don't fall. Don't fall.' I kept repeating to myself. Somehow no matter how beautiful or powerful i felt, I'd always repeat these words in my head so that I don't embarrasse myself in front of him. I guess somewhere inside i still had feelings for him.

I then finally made it downstairs. Safely.

Jeremy took my hand and brought me closer to his chest. "You look stunning Princess King." he whispered in my ear, kissing my neck while at it. I rolled my eyes but luckily he couldn't see that.

"Thank you." I said smiling while running my hand over his upper body. He was pretty well built. Very well built.

"If you stop staring maybe I'll stop too." he chuckled.

I tried very hard not to roll my eyes at him, so I gave him a small smile. He then took my hand and we headed outside where our limo was waiting.

"Its going to be very hard not to rip out some eyes tonight." he said out loud typing on his phone without looking at me.

I turned my head to face him. "Why would you do that?"

"I don't want anyone looking at you. You're mine." he said the last part looking directly at me.

I widen my eyes, looking to the side as i drank my champagne.

"I'm serious. If I see one of them looking at you for longer then a minute, or even breathing your direction, i will end them."

I smirk. "What if I find them attractive?" I asked, just to rifle him up a bit.

"Then God help me." he said his eyes already changing colour.

I don't know, but the thought of him ripping out someone's heart excited me. Was he really willing to kill for me? But I quickly rid of that thought. I wasn't going to fall for him this easily. Not again.

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