I Close My Eyes
Maybe I’m too weak to keep this up,
Maybe you’ll leave me cause I wasn’t enough
Maybe I’m too blind to see what going on
Maybe I’m too sick to keep going on
Maybe I’m right, maybe I’m wrong
Pictures scattered everywhere on my floor
Showing many things: hope, love, sadness, anger
Too many pictures, I’ve had enough
The moment is gone, but will forever be kept
Etched in a photo, a time I can never go back to
I don’t want to have to watch how all the people leave
Leaving me behind, on this empty path, I look down
Pretending to laugh, not showing my frown
But deep down, I can say, it’s broken all the way
I push the pause button, everything’s still
Unfortunately, it isn’t paused because I want it to
It’s paused at a time I can never go back to
So I close my eyes while imagining the scars gone,
But you can still see the place cut, there on my arm
I bang against the wall, and close my eyes
I close my eyes and pretend it’ll be all right in the end
Hand me your crutches, ‘cause I can hardly stand
Every new day, I keep trying to live, and yet
Every new day I think about giving up
I’ve had enough of this, getting up every morning
Thinking about every possible way we might end
Maybe I’m too dumb to know what’s going on
So take my hand and tell me again that it’ll be fine
Cover my wrist, maybe then it’ll heal
The scars still remain, but it’ll be okay
As long as you hold my hand, it’ll be okay
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inspired by a rap song by Caution! (Caution Ausrufezeichen). They're a German Rap group from the town I used to live in back in Germany. The dude's awesome, his music has some real depth :) I love them. They've an album out, so you should go check out their youtube channel (eltRAPville) or their facebook page (Caution Ausrufezeichen) and give them a listen. Their song "Als wär alles gut" holds a special meaning for me, due to various reasons, but I won't go into those and bore you.
Thanks for reading, hope you enjoy ^^
Over and out
-momamoose
