Deadly Infatuation

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Still not fining it I Decided to work my way up my schedule I first went to English, the class I just came from, and no luck. I checked my Literature class that I have after lunch and still had no luck in finding it. I considered calling Laney or even Zack to come get me but I need my bus pass the rest of the year. I knew my best chance of finding it was to finish looking today. I walked to the history building and the memories of this morning ran through my head. What if he's inside? What do I say to him?

I stand outside professor Riley's door for about 5 minutes before gaining the courage to go inside. Peaking my head through the door I look into his room, and discover that he's not in there. Filled with relief I go straight to my seat and look all around and to my dismay, it wasn't there. I sit down a minute and put my head in my hands, letting my hair fan around my face. I sit there for about 5 minutes just trying to compress end how my first day in college sucks this much.

I take a couple deep breaths and compose my self. I'm walking outside of the room about to call Laney to come get me and then I feel a tap on my shoulder, spinning around my breath caught in my throat at who tapped me. "I think this yours" Professor Riley said while holding out my bus pass to me. "Yes it is thank you, I've been looking everywhere for it" I explain to him all in one breath. "You know the buses stopped running about 10 minutes ago right?" he asks me while looking at his watch. "Oh  I guess I didn't know they ever stopped running, This is just perfect," I  say exasperated and on the verge of tears. "Not having a good first day?" he asks his voice full of concern. I laugh " No not at all, I thought college would be better  than this."

"College is better than this, it'll get better it always does", he said putting a hand on my shoulder. I could feel the heat radiating from his touch, I looked up to meet his eyes and they were a  vibrant blue with dark blue rings on the outside. I had the strangest feeling, like he was going to kiss me, and I was going to let him. He  pulled away suddenly and cleared his throat, "I can take you home since  the buses have all gone."

"Are you sure? I don't want to bother you, I  could call my roommate," I tell him not wanting to annoy him. "No I don't mind at all, where do you live?" I  told him the address of my on-campus apartment, " Yeah it's no problem you are only 2 blocks from me" and with that, he turned and headed outside, I followed him out to his car. He didn't drive what I would have thought. "This is your car?" I asked shocked because it was a blacked out jeep with big rims and tires, it honestly looked like a boys dream car. "Yeah now get in," he replied.

So I did what he said and jumped into his jeep. We didn't talk on the ride home, he did turn on his music and  I have to say I loved his music it was pretty close to the stuff I  listen to. Dani California by the Red Hot Chilli peppers came on and I  started to softly sing along. " You know The Red Hot Chili peppers?"  Professor Riley asked with one eyebrow arched in amusement. "Yeah I do actually, I like rock music and old music, I love Fleetwood Mac, but I also like Florence and the Machine" crap  I'm rambling again I realize, mentally making a note to shut the hell up. "Hmm, interesting" is all he said so we slipped back into a comfortable silence between us.

Before I knew it we were pulling in to my apartment. "I guess Laney isn't home, oh well thank you for the ride," I said getting out of the car. Riley turns the jeep off and opens the door, "What are you doing?" confused as to why he's getting out of his car. "Can I use your bathroom?" he asks me stopping in his tracks. "Oh yeah that's fine," I say to him, almost asking his why doesn't he go the two blocks and use his own bathroom,  but I stop myself.

Unlocking the door I  fumble with my new keys, I am acutely aware of how close he is standing behind me. Finally getting the door unlocked I push through and head to my room. "You can use my bathroom, it's in my room" he nods and follows me in. I go to my desk that's opposite the bathroom and set my backpack down and start pulling out all of my school work. Trying to organize my  school work Riley's voice startles me "I like your room, I would never  have thought this is what it would look like."  "Thanks, I guess?" I said turning to face him. He was sitting on my bed, looking straight at me with those piercing blue/grey eyes. "You really like a variety of music don't you, and books I guess?" he says while getting off of my bed and walks across my room to admire my overcrowded bookshelf.

"Yeah I do, I guess I'm just weird, I dunno I've always thought my self as a drifter, just kinda floating between things," I tell him admitting more about me than I probably should have. Lily pull your self together, he's your professor, not your friend, The little voice inside my head tells me but I ignore it. I walk up behind him to see what book he picked up off my shelf, after reading the title I quickly snatch the book back. "So you like romances I'm guessing?" he says smirking at me.  "Well like you said, I like a wide variety of things," I tell him defiantly while trying to hide my blushing face. "Its pretty worn out I'm guessing this  is a favorite?"I look at the book in his hand and he's right it is my favorite, it's my very worn copy of The Forbidden Game by L.J. Smith. "Yes it is Professor Riley, I'm a sucker for a romantic  tragedy every now and then, but isn't everyone?"

I tell him half jokingly and at the same time wondering if he was a romantic, and what it would be like to be held by him the same way he was holding my book. I  must have said the wrong thing because I could see the walls go back up  behind his eyes. "your right Lily, everyone likes a little bit of a  tragic romance sometimes."  He tells me with a cold voice that was full of remorse. I then realize how close to him I was standing, I start to back up but he catches my hand keeping me in place.

"I don't know what it is but there's something about you that I just can't put my finger on," Riley says his free hand gently tucking my hair behind my ear. His breath smelled like peppermint. He gently tilts my head up to where my eyes are locked on his. I can feel him looking at my lips, I close my eyes waiting for him to kiss me. His lips are warm and soft, I feel my heart quicken its pace, the blood in my veins rush to my ears blocking the world out.

The kiss starts out tenderly like he's afraid of breaking me, then it shifts to passion and desire. I can feel how much he wanted this, he pulls me even closer pressing my body against his. I can feel every strong and hard muscle through his suit. I wrap my arms around his neck giving into him completely, and that's when I feel him tense. He pulls away breaking the kiss much sooner than I wanted. "I have to go, I can't do this Lily,"  he says making his way out of my room to the front door.

I should go after him and ask him what changed in him, but I was still reeling from his otherworldly kiss. The kiss that rocked my world and made my heartburn with desire. I wanted him in a way that I never knew I could want someone.

My earlier heartache from Cameron came back to add to this new pain and rejection I was feeling. Why did he leave me, did I do something wrong?  It's my first day in college and I have already had boy problems.