Deadly Infatuation

Lucas

She doesn't see how angry she makes me when she doesn't listen to me. The urge to show her who is in charge was so strong I had to leave. I left to protect her, to let her live a little longer. I don't want to hurt her, at least not yet. I love her, so I will find a substitute to quench this bloodlust for now. Leaving Lily's bedroom, I go home and before I can walk into my dark basement I can hear her screaming. Her pleads and her begging fall on deaf ears, I've saved her for this reason. She will take care of my bloodlust; her life will buy Lily more time.

This girl's life means nothing to me, none of them ever do. Lily means the world to me. I would do anything for her, so why did break up with me? Why is she trying to escape me? How does she not know that I need her? The heart that I never thought I had, is shattering into a billion pieces. She has given me a reason to live, she is the light at the end of my tunnel. So why is she trying to leave?

The monster inside of me hurt her, why did I let him hurt her. Why can't he understand that I need her, I need her love and her warmth. I can't live without her, she is my heart and soul. The monster though, he doesn't care, all he wants is blood, I must contain him, please him. I must give him the bloodshed he craves, the lives he must take.

The monster comes out once again, pushing the broken man that I am away. I stand there watching her squirm in her chains, trying so hard to break free. They never do though, none of them have ever gotten free. Grabbing the girls matted black hair I force her to look at me while I analyze her. I picked her because of how different she is than Lily she's dark where Lily is light. I am a creature of the dark, Like a moth, I am drawn to Lily's flame.

The girls attitude changes, she stops moving away and sits there in awe of my outward beauty. Now that she has stopped fighting I lean down looking into her eyes savoring the moments in between life and death. The light behind her eyes fades as my knife goes further into her chest. The light that was hers is now mine, the power is mine. I keep the knife in her chest feeling the warm thick flow of bloodstream out of her body until the blood runs cold and the stream dies out. Inhaling the thick sweet copper scent brings me back to life.

In that moment after I've taken a life, is when I feel most alive. The time I feel alive is when I kill until I met Lily, that's why I need her, to stop this monster. I need to go and see her, to love on her and be covered in her sweet love. Wait I can't go to her, she doesn't love me anymore. She wants nothing to do with me anymore. She doesn't need me anymore, not the way I need her.

I cannot live without her, she must be mine. I need her to love me, to help me rid myself of the monster. She will love me. I can't let her go, I won't ever let her go.