Dark Skies

Last Straw

'There comes a point in life when everything becomes too much. When something is so undeniably close to coming to an end, that it's only a matter of time before the last straw is pulled.' ellzx13

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I wanted her to stop.

This was the last straw, I didn't think I could listen anymore.

It was bringing everything back in the worst way possible, making me feel as if I was breaking down under Rihanna's words, bit by bit. But she didn't know this.

She didn't know that I killed Young Suk, her best friend who she loved so dearly. I was a murderer at the least, not physically but mentally. I made him do what he did. I am the reason he ended his life when he had so much potential. All because I was jealous.

"I'm sorry" Rihanna mumbled, "I shouldn't of told you all this."

"No it's okay," I reached out and rested a hand on her shoulder, "I'm glad you did." I landed a gentle kiss on her cheek.

"You didn't need to know that much though..." she argued, "it wasn't your fault."

The words stung me.

"It was nobody's fault," I felt like I was going to throw up, "I promise."

I hated myself. I fucking hated myself for lying to her like this.

"You must've known him" the question came from out of the blue. Rihanna looked at me expectantly, awaiting my answer.

I froze.

"I mean..." she hesitated, "you were a trainee too, at the exact same time he was. And you were both going up for a place in BTS, weren't you?"

I didn't know what to say. My whole entire world was in front of me, looking at me with those eyes I fell in love with. And she wanted me to tell her the truth. But I couldn't because if I did then my world as I knew it would change. I would lose her.

"Yes" my voice shook, "I mean, yeah I did know him of course I did."

Rihanna tilted her head to the side, the tears on her cheeks slowly drying. She knew I was hiding something, she could hear it in my voice.

"You asked me who he was earlier...if you knew him then why did you ask?" I stayed in an unbearable silence, unsure of what to say. "Jimin, if there's something you need to tell me, I'd rather you just-"

Suddenly a loud noise sounded from my pocket, interrupting Rihanna. I pulled my phone out, breath hitched in my throat. My whole body was tense, the air stagnant, as my eyes scanned over the message lighting up the screen.

I didn't notice in that moment, Rihanna leaning across the table to look over my shoulder at the words that would change everything. The words that ended everything.

I might as well of read the message aloud.

It's only a matter of time before she finds out the truth. I wonder how she'll feel about you when she realises that you're the reason Young Suk took his life. And that it was all down to pure jealously...

Love always- Min Yoongi X

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