October 19, 2017
+Sidemen 4 years+
Simons POV
We didn't want to do anything for the 4 years, but Vik and Tobi felt as if we would be dicks not to. That we shouldn't sit around and mourn where as use it as a time to celebrate the Time we had with Ethan. So here we were, all the sidemen and friends in the garden of our house, music blasting loud enough so we could hear it out here. The yard was decorated with balloons and streamers of black and white, red confetti thrown around the whole house, in honour of Ethan.
"Why aren't you out there?" A hand was placed on my shoulder, and joshes face came into view. I shrugged, swirling around the drink in my cup. He sat on the stool next to me, huffing as he sat down, like an old man.
"Party doesn't seem right. We are missing someone." I admitted, and his face dropped into a slight frown as he nodded. His fingers danced across my knuckles, making my stomach turn at the shock of pain.
"It's so weird without him here. This was the first year we weren't all together for our anniversary." His voice was hushed so that if anyone outside was listening in, our conversation would be drowned out by the music.
"I know." Was all I could respond with, because the only thing flashing through my mind was images of hot, sweaty nights in joshes room. Or the quickies we had while Vik and jj were at the shops. I swallowed the lump in my throat with guilt, my face getting warm.
"Shall we go out there and look like we are enjoying ourselves?" Josh suggested, and my eyes glanced to the group of people before looking back into his creamy brown eyes. I nodded lightly, slipping off the stool, grabbing my cup and walking outside. Cal and Sarah were the first ones to be seen, gee and freezy following them. Everyone was either in a big circle or dancing around the circle. Vik and Tobi were with each other, and though I suspected something between the too, it still shocked me to see little Vik dancing harshly onto tobis front. A smile played at my lips as I walked over to the pair, tobis eyes meeting mine and thus making him pull Vik closer.
"Well this is a pair I would have never guessed to be together." I teased lightly, making sure to leave the smile on my face as I spoke. Vik shot me a glare, and Tobi clicked his tounge.
"Same to you and josh." He quipped, and my eyes bulged, snapping my head to him.
"What?" I stuttered, swallowing thickly as I began to feel suffocated.
"It looked like you two were a couple in the window, mate chill." He giggled, and I let out a tiny breath. I nodded, letting out a dry laugh.
"Of course you would. No, no. It was, it was actually me and Ethan. The couple." Tobi hadn't known it yet, that I was gay. So as I finished my sentence he looked awestruck.
"Wow, are we all not into girls." It wasn't a question as he chuckled, holding Vik as they swayed. I thought about it, and my mouth gaped as I stared at the pair.
"Jide is fully straight, harry is bi as we ALL know." Viks mouth curved into a smile, blush heating up his caramel cheeks.
*flashback*
All the guys had been drinking, Ethan and Simon flirting drunkenly on the sofa as the others were splayed on the floor. Josh was taking up the loveseat while harry and Vik were layed on the floor, Viks head resting on Harry's stomach. Conversations were loud and obnoxious in the house, no tellies on the drown out the sounds for a sleeping Tobi and jj. Harry had been staring at Vik as he spoke about his ex, Kay, who had got a new boyfriend. All the while Harry's eyes were gravitating to Viks lips, making Harry's stomach swim with butterflies. Suddenly the young blonde pounced up, kissing Vik with force. Vik shot backwards, making everyone in the room go silent as a crimson harry sat on the middle all alone. He hadn't wanted it to happen, but it just had. The habits of liquid courage.
*end of flashback*
The people around us were starting to get quieter as the music became slower. I downed my drink, leaving the two to continue whatever they had started. I made my way to the drink stand, pouring whatever was in reach and downing that as well until my vision was blurry around the edges and I couldn't tell the difference between my thoughts and the words I spoke.
"You alright?" Josh's voice came from behind me, his hand placing itself onto my shoulder with care. I nodded, licking my lips as I walked away from everyone, excusing myself to my room. Josh followed close behind me, and when I didn't shut the door to my room, he took that as an invitation to enter. My heart was racing, this being the first time me and josh were alone like this, both of us happening to be drunk beyond belief. He came closer, his lips so close I couldn't tell if his breath smelled of vodka or mine. My stomach was turning, my mind confused if I should continue or not. But without thinking,
He attached his lips to mine,
And for the first time since before Ethan died,
and I followed,
Peeling my clothes off as we went.
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