♚Perfect Tragedy♚||emon<Minizerk||

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Simons POV
I felt sick. And not because of the liquor that was running up my throat surrounded by bile. I rushed to the toilets, spilling my guts out as my brain pounded against my skull.
As to why I was sick, well that's all due to who's toilets I was in. Josh's
I let my head fall into my hands, tears running down my face. I had let Ethan down once more, and he didn't even know what had been going on. My hand ended up connecting with the wall again, this time blood spurting out my knuckles and onto the cream coloured walls.
"What's going on in here?" Tobi's tired voice came from the doorway, and I turned to him with wide eyes as he looked at the scene around me.
"Si, what happened!?" His voice was set to a gasp as he got on his knees and took my hand in his. He was mumbling to himself, fully awake from my actions.
"Lets go, you need stitches." His voice was soft as he lifted me off the floor.
"No Tobi it's fine thank you, it's not that bad." I tried talking him out of taking me, but he wasn't even listening as he walked out the room and down the stairs. I followed him, each step sending sharp pains in my stomach.
"I'm not going to ask why you were in Josh's room." Tobi told me in a whisper as he grabbed his keys off the counter. He looked beyond furious as he got int he car to drive me to the hospital. I held my gushing hand with guilt, staring at the dark skinned boy with the deep from set into his face.
"I'm sorry you have to do this." I apologised, and Tobi let out a deep sigh.
"I wasn't going to say anything Because Its not my business. But it kind of is, because Ethan is was my friend. And so are you, but you have hickeys on your neck." His voice was deep and harsh, something that I never seen from Tobi.
I was confused at what he was talking about til I felt the side of my neck, flinching at the contact.
"Tobi," he stopped me, shaking his head, his eyes going soft.
"I don't want to fight with you." His whispered, and I felt as if we didn't des the him as a friend. But then I thought about it, and I decided that I didnt deserve him as a friend. We pulled into the car park, and I got out the car quickly before any blood dropped into his car. We walked into the prompt care without talking to eachother. After telling a nurse that was walking around what was wrong, she took us back to a room so he could get it stitched up.
"I can't believe I slept with him." I whispered to myself, and again tobis eyes went soft and he set his hand on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry you lost the boy you  love. I'm truly sorry, but Simon this is not the way to deal with it. Sleeping with josh? This better just be a one time thing." His advice sunk in, and guilt set into my body for the 3rd time today. Tobis eyes went wide, then narrowed on me.
"You were cheating on him!?"
My eyes shifted from him to the white walls around me, and Tobi slammed his hands down on the metal tray.
"You fucking didn't Simon. Because the Simon I know would never have done something like that. Is that why he killed him self? Because you made him feel las if he wasn't enough for you?" Tobi ambushed me, making me tear up at his true words. I nodded quickly, and this sent him into a spiral of anger.
"Simon I can NOT believe you." He shouted, making me flinch. I had never seen tobi like this, and I wish I never had to see him like this. I let him yell and scream at me, and at time he would get close to me, squeezing his fist closed like he wanted to strangle me. I was sobbing loudly as one of my best friends cursed me out. The door opened, a guy walking in with a frown on his face.
"Did I interrupt something?" He asked, and Tobi shook his head.
"I was just leaving. I'll be int he car." He directed the last part to me, and I nodded to him. Once he left, the guy looked at me with a quizzical expression.
"Boyfriend?" He asked, and I shook my head, not wanting to explain the situation to him. He stitched  me up, not malignant eye contact as he sent me out the hospital with cream. As I got in the car, Tobi was shaking.
"I can't judge what happened in your guys relationship. I'm sorry." Tobi blurred out before I even buckled. I felt horrible, he was way too nice for his own good. We rode back listening to Jjs music, my mind drifting to the flat that still had Ethan's belongings in it.
"It was a week after Freya broke up with josh. That's when it started." Even though Tobi said e didn't want to know, I felt obligated to tell him when abouts it had started. I started to explain it all, how I feel horrible afterwards, but couldn't get myself to stop or tell Ethan. By the time we got home a weight was lifted off my shoulders, but once we got inside, the weight was thrown in not my shoulders, but my heart. He was standing in the corner of my room, his arms crossed and his eyes narrowed at me. His face was building a beard on it, and his blue eyes shown with care. My mouth opened, and his name slipped out.

"Ethan."
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Honestly don't know what's going to happen yet, just winging it if I'm honest. Though, I do know this will most likely be my longest book yet.