♚Perfect Tragedy♚||emon<Minizerk||

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I love you
Those three words could change something in a blink of an eye.
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Joshes pov
"Simon add more weetabix to the list were out." I called to my best friend who sat opposite me, scribbling items down on a piece of paper. He nodded, mumbling the word as he wrote it. His eyes were fixed on the small sheet of paper, the navy orbs bouncing from one end to the next.
"Josh!" He shouted and i snapped my head up to meet his eyes, now scanning over my reddened face.
"Sorry what did you say?" I asked embarrassingly as I tapped my nails to the hard countertop.
"I said is that all." He chuckled and I nodded, looking in the cupboard before giving him the thumbs up that we were done. He flung the pen onto the table, slumping in the seat next to me.
"Why doesn't Vik have to do the shopping." He groaned childishly and I sent him a smile.
"Mate you know damn well that Vik would have killed us if he was to do the shopping." I quipped and he laughed at my very real statement.
"Shall we ask Tobi and vik if they would like anything?" Simon asked, and I nodded. He stood up, telling me he would go ask them.
I took the paper that had the list scribbled on it, my finger tapping it as I grabbed my keys to my car.

As I sat there in the car, waiting for Simon, I couldn't help but let my thoughts travel to what it would be like if we made it official.
My heart filled with warmth as I thought about publicly holding his hand at Thorpe park, and being able to tell people that he was my boyfriend.
What it would be like to marry him and adopt kids together and grow old with him. I didn't even notice that Simon was at the door, knocking on the glass.
I unlocked the car, letting him in as my face heated up once more.
"Day dreaming were you love?" He chuckled lightly, his hand slapping my knee. My skin sizzled with heat as I looked away from him, my stomach doing summersaults.
I focused on the road, backing out the driveway and making my way to the nearest tesco.
My throat was dry as I swallowed thickly, my eyes flicking over to Simon subconsciously.
"Eyes on the road." He whispered, his voice soft and creamy.
I didn't respond, knowing if I did I would say something I wasn't supposed to.
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Simons POV
Whilst in tescos, a few fans had found us, and suddenly I was washed back down to missing my old life.
"My names Milli, um, you met me a few times at meet ups. I don't know if you remember me. But you are very much missed on YouTube and twitter." Her head was down, and she didn't dare make eye contact with me.
My heart sank as she told me how many people were still tweeting me daily, and how many subscribers I gained after I left. Tears filled my eyes, a sad smile lifting the corners of my lips as I caught a glance of josh in the same situation.
"I'd love to come back, but, I don't think I could you know. Ethan was, he was a gem and we lost him. I couldn't go on doing YouTube without him. But thank you. Thank you for the constant support." The girl, milli, nodded at me as she smiled, and suddenly I remembered who she was.
"You were the one who brought Ethan the cake for upload weren't you?" Milli nodded, her whole body radiating as I told her I knew who she was.
"I didn't think you'd remember if I'm honest." Her giggle rang in my ears, a sweet sensation running up my back as the familiar feeling of being with a fan rushed back to mind.
"We have to go now, but thank you for taking time to talk to us." Milli spoke, and the brunette that was once talking to josh was now at her side. I gave them both a hug, and josh did the same.
"Also, illuminate was amazing josh." Milli's voice cracked as she said the sentence, and again my heart sank to an all time low as the words she spoke registered in my brain.
"Illuminate? You released illuminate?" I couldn't help the small cry that escaped my lips as I asked him. The running joke that was a stepping stone in the sidemen, was now killed off.
"Yeah. Guess the sidemen isn't a thing anymore." Josh laughed dryly whilst pulling out the list and walking down the cereal isle.
"I just don't think it would be right to go back to YouTube, though I do admit I miss the fans." I shrugged, throwing multiple boxes of cereals in the trolley.
"I don't think I could back after illuminate." Josh snorted, a pure laugh that echoed down the isle.
"I'll have to watch it some time." Bumping his shoulder, we went back to being silent, throwing whatever we needed into the trolley as well as floater sweets and snacks we may want.

As we got to the till, any sorrow was since drained out my system leaving me in a daze of happiness and content. I watched josh begin a conversation with the lady, a conversation about today's youth. She had noticed the two girls that had approached us, and was confused as to why we were getting attention from such a young audience.
I kept my mouth shut, as the girls were merely 4 years younger than us, and let josh rant back to her.
Finally she made eye contact with me, and the crease between her brows softened.
"Are you two a couple, if you don't mind me asking." My breath caught in my throat, and a smile slipped into joshes face as his cheeks reddened.
"No ma'am, we aren't." Josh coughed out, and once again her brow crease deepened. She mumbled to herself as she handed josh the change, telling us to have a good day before turning her back to us.
I let josh go a bit ahead of me, looking back to the lady before quickly running back to her.
"If it helps you at all, I'm utterly in love with him." Her face lit up, and she winked at me, telling me to go for it. I rushed back to josh who looked as if he just got told off by someone .
"Where did you go?" He asked sharply, and it got so silent in tw car park that you could hear his heart beating.
"I wen to talk to the lady." I whispered innocently.
"Well you could have told me, I thought you got stolen or something!" He yelled harshly, and a pang flew through my heart.
"It was important." I stated, not wanting to get in a fight with him, especially with why I went back to talk to the lady that stood at the till.
"Oh how important was it?" He snorted, and by then I was fuming.
I didn't answer, standing back as he put the groceries in the boot.
He turned around, his eyebrows raised as he looked at me.
"How important was it?"

Then it slipped out, and I knew that even though we have fucked for months, this moment was going to change everything from here on.

"I don't know josh. Pretty fucking important! At least I'd hope loving you was even an ounce of importance to you!"
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Wink wonk, I took forever to write this.
This was a significantly long chapter so I'm happy with it:)