The Demons Inside. [ZM AU]

Ch: 18 || Befriend.

The next morning, I woke up to a empty space beside me. I didn't expect anything else, but a part of me was a little disappointed. In the early hours of this morning, it was a blur to be but I do remember Zayn's words and his cuddle-how he shielded me from the demons trying to hurt me mentally. I was grateful for his actions.

Doing my routine, I then headed downstairs, only to hear Nathan and Zayn having a conversation about no-one else but me. Of course I had to listen-it was only right to!

"I just want her to forgive me and not hate me anymore. I don't know if she loves me because of the way I've been acting."

"Well, you have been acting like a heartless prick-"

"-you know, I preferred it when you were an unconfident coward. You're slightly pissing me off now!" Zayn grumbled and I could almost sense him running a hand through his raven coloured hair in irritation by his friend. I sat down on the bottom step and continued to be nosey.

"I'm only telling you the truth, Zayn. If you can't take the truth, why waste your time here?" Nathan's words recently have been full of logic-that university has been doing him good, eh?

"I know-I know. I just don't want to push her away if I end up pushing Caitlin away. She must now by now that there is no way in hell that I'll stay with Caitlin after the baby is born. It wouldn't be right for anyone. Urgh-this is all my fault. I shouldn't have brought Sophia back-"

"-Sophia and I saw her old house." Nathan suddenly burst out and my breathe hitched. Why the hell did he just tell Zayn that?! He wasn't supposed to know!

"W-what? Why didn't you tell me this before?! That's why she was having those nightmares! Urgh, Nathan! You should've told me!" Zayn sounded angry and his tone wasn't one to surprise me as I've heard it many times already in the past.

Nathan scoffed and laughed half-heartedly at this, "mate, how can I if all you talk about is yourself? You haven't asked her how she was or anything-have you? When's the last time you solemnly talked about her?"

"A few weeks ago... when she was on her period. I needed to know why she was so low, then high, then low again." Zayn was chuckling and so was Nathan. Guys, this is so embarrassing-can you not?

Urgh-I'm seriously cringing at that memory. He kept pestering me all day, trying to figure out why I was so emotional. It was because a damn egg was being released from my bloody ovaries okay? Probably the size of a dinosaur's egg because that is how much it hurt!

"That's different. You're always talking about how unfair your life is because Karma has come to bite your ass. You're so caught up in your anger, you can't see she's grieving? She's your girlfriend."

Girlfriend? I'm not his girlfriend.

"She isn't my girlfriend-"

See?

"-but I want to ask her to be mines soon. I just need to find the right time and words. I need to win her completely back first of all." Zayn's tone is thoughtful and that is all the conversation I can take in, because I've somehow wondered into the kitchen. I tried to act totally innocent and oblivious of their private meeting.

"Good morning." I fake yawn, heading to the sink to grab a glass of water. I chug it down quickly and I notice that both guys are staring at me intensely. I feel self conscious-checking myself before I frowned.

"How much of the conversation did you hear?" Zayn asked me wearily.

"What conversation?" and they both take in my innocent act and breathe out in a sigh of relief.