The Demons Inside. [ZM AU]

Ch: 30 || Friendship.

((you guys HAVE to listen to the song on the side whilst reading the scene starting with the **:) It's called Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. It's perfect for this fanfiction xo))

I heard loud curses and yells from downstairs which was a typical atmosphere wherever Zayn was, but this time it seemed different. He seemed like he was in pain. I don't know how I even sussed that out, but it just shows how close we are. I shut the notebook and placed it carefully on the bedside table, getting read to go see what bombshell had his us this time, because it was so obvious life is going to hand us another damn lemon. Stupid lemons, these lemons are as painful as the juice squirted in your eyes!

"What's going on?" I gasp, seeing multiple punched in walls of Nathan's living room. I can just picture Nathan coming home from university all happy go lucky, and then boom. He'll see the havoc Zayn's made of his poor house. It's obvious we're going to get kicked out. I might as well start packing out few things right now.

Zayn turned around immediately to the sound of my voice and I take in his frightening appearance. His eyes are blood shot from the tears that are welling up inside, probably the pain from his bleeding knuckles are causing him to cry. I mean, he can't be that upset that he ruined Nathan's house. It's not like the house was model like before.

"B-boo." he breathes out, shaking slightly as he stumbles towards me. I hope he hasn't been drinking. I know he wouldn't have though because Siva's in the same room as him. I glance at the two best friends who are gaping at their ex leader's behaviour which means they're not any help to me. I thought I could've asked why he was acting this way.

"You love me?" he questioned me curiously once he reached me.

"Yes of course I do." I say without a second though, because it is an immediate reaction. A reflex.

"You wouldn't keep secrets from me?" he was acting like an innocent little boy now, not the angry raging male who had ruined his friend's perfectly decent walls. That reminds me, Zayn needs to get Nathan's forgiveness for last night, oh damn it. Too late now. This sigh isn't going to help him gain his forgiveness now is it?

"No... why do you ask?" he has the heart to ask me that question after all the bombshells that were dropped while we've been in London because of him and his stupid secrets?! Gosh.

"My. My idiotic. My idiotic mother-" now that isn't something you hear everyday! He loves his mother so much, it's indescribable. They've been supporting each other since birth.

"-has been. Has been lying to m all these fu-stupid years." he pinched the bridge of his nose before he cursed out loud, knowing cursing would only make him angrier. Woah, he actually listens to me?

I raise an eyebrow at Siva and Jay who simply shrug as if to say 'we dunno' great help boys! Well done! How did he know about his mother 'lying' to him if she's not in the room?

"What has she lied about?" I questioned him in a calm manner to encourage him to calm down, I take his busted large hand in my trembling hand, and pull him gently to sit next to me on Nathan's sofa.  He does as he's guided to do, and does the weirdest thing-he puts his head on my leg on top of my legs that were crossed over each other.

"About me being an only child." I began to stroke his raven coloured hair that was flat on his forehead rather then spiked with gel like it usually is. Honestly, I preferred it like this just how Zayn prefers me without makeup on... but I always have to put a bit of eyeliner on. The reason for this is because it makes me stop crying all the damn time. If I'm on the edge of breaking down, I hold it all in because I don't want to mess up the eyeliner. Clever, I know right? I only started wearing it when I met Zayn... says a lot about my sadness, right?