Falling Into Place (Jaime Preciado) (*PTV* Fanfic 1)

12. "i don't know why i ignored my heart"

*LANEY*

Nicka had taken me out to dinner at a nearby restraunt, I really didn’t know what state we were in at this point, but it didn’t really matter to me. I looked over at him and smiled, the last few days have went pretty well, but for some reason I wish it was another person that stood infront of me calling me 'babe.' I sighed and ordered a small garden burger.

“no, she'll have the caesar.” Nicka nodded, the waitress looked at me and I sunk down in my seat “ garden burger please, with sprouts.” I whispered and she nodded.

“i can order for myself Nicka.” I said flatly. Who was he to tell me what I could and couldn’t eat?

“i don’t want you getting any bigger. You're bigger than when I first went out with you.” he nodded, not taking his nose away from his phone.

“asshole.” I muttered under my breath. Yeah, I may have gained a few pounds, but honestly, when I was dating him, he held me under his grasp for so long and held me under his lingering hovering glare for 3 years, it sent me into a depression that caused me to starve myself, and continued to do so until 3 months after he had left.

“oh and were going to a bar tonight.” he nodded, still glues to that fucking rectangle in his hand.

“hey Nick, why don’t you put down the brain-cell killing device and look at me for once?” I asked, putting my hand on the top of the phone and pushed it down some. He snapped his neck up at me, I moved my hand away before he could grab it, but he did and he pulled me to him harshly. So hard that it would definitely leave a bruise on my arm. “don’t tell me what to do.” Hypocrite. I could tell the old Nicka was gone for good. I knew I shouldn’t of let him back into my life again. 

the next day –

i was sitting on the bench in the park near my house back home, then suddenly i was walking on a boardwalk walking over a marsh or swamp thing in broad daylight, i was singing my heart out to 'Time Bomb' by All Time Low, hearing footsteps behind me but i shrugged them off, then looked back and saw a rope attached  the the persons hip, then swung around, seeing two guys with their faces covers, but i noticed one of there eyes, Nickas, he engulfed me in a tight hug and pulled out a knife "its not gonna hurt darling" he whispered in my ear,

and thats when i woke up. looking over a Nicka, who was still asleep, with his back pointing towards me, it was a memory more than a dream really... it made my heart panic a little.  i sighed and turned my back on him, falling asleep shortly after.

i was back at a venue, looking around when i felt someone come and whisk me off my feet, taking me outside into a shed somewhere and started to punch and prod at my body. i started screaming at that point, "Laney!" i heard a voice scream, and scream. the voice fading into the darkness that engulfed my mind once again. i broke away from the dark figure and out into the blinding spotlight, but i couldn’t move.. i looked around, and then i realized i was screaming Jaime's name over and over and over again, beginning to collapse from exhaustion, and thats when i was caught, looking up at his face... that face i couldn’t escape no matter where i was. i smiled brightly up at him and leaned up , as he met me halfway.


then i  woke up again, but this time to Dane clanging on his guitar in the back room, obviously being obnoxious with his volume levels. "God Fuck Bro..." i yelled, holding my head.

i looked over at the body next to me and sighed. 

Dane had agreed to let Nicka stay on the bus, just so he could keep an eye out for me. i didn’t mind.. he meant well.. but after last night. I knew Nicka had to go. My dreams were trying to tell me something and I was finally ready to listen to them. i wasn’t supposed to be with Nicka like i thought... everyone was right.. i cursed myself in my head.. i had to ride this out though, i cant just say to someone that i will give them another chance and then blow them off 4 days later.... kinda hypocritical if you think about it... thats basically what i did with Jaime in the beginning... i'm a terrible person. and it just took 2 dreams to make me realize what was really going on.