Falling Into Place (Jaime Preciado) (*PTV* Fanfic 1)

54. "For everything.."

*LANEY*

I walked out of the bus to the house quietly, Austin on one side of me and Jordan on the other side. Austin had is arm around my shoulders while Jordan had his arm around my waist, holding me protectively. Oli was walking in front of me to block me I guess.. I didn't want to see Jaime at all... or for as long as humanly possible.

I had 3 days to think about all of this. And I came to the conclusion I should just probably stay out of his life completely. Im obviously a corruption agent in his life...  and I don't want to be that person.

"What are you going to do? They are kinda occupying your den, Dove." Oli asked, walking backwards to look at me.

"Make a break for my room." I nodded as Austin took my duffle in his hand that wasn't over my shoulders "Yo, Tino, Phil.. make a distraction." Austin called over to Phil and Tino who just threw a thumbs up and crashed into the house yelling something inaudible to my ears. Austin broke away after squeezing my shoulders and running in after Tino, Jordan kissed my forehead "i'll be up soon." he said as he threw his bags into the guest room downstairs and headed after Oli into the living room, which unfortunately I had to pass though to get to the stairs to make it to my safe haven of my room.

As soon as I walked in the door I could feel eyes were on me, I could feel the same sensation every time I walked into a room with him there. I glanced over my shoulder and caught his gaze staring right back into me. Fuck.

As much as I wanted to look away I couldn't. I kept my gaze on him as I continued towards my stairs.. to the sanctuary of my room. I finally got enough strength to pull my eyes away and bolted up the hardwood stairs, almost tripping at the top over my own feet but finally made it to my room in one piece. I didn't bother shutting my door all the way. "jesus Laney.." I spoke to myself sighing. I walked over to my window and cracked it open, the wind gust instantly blowing through my room and shut my door with its nasty force. I sighed and clicked on my lamp, curling into my big white and blue comforter, forming into a tiny ball of loneliness. I didn't even want Jordan to come up anymore. I pulled my phone out and told him that, getting a 'as you wish' in response.

I started to look though my phone, seeing things that made my mind flash back to the times I was happy.. I don't mean like fake-smiling happy.. I mean genuinely happy in my life.. and guess when all those times were located at... all those times were in the summer of 2014 with Los Pierce dah Veils.

I heard a knock on my door, breaking my thought path and making me sigh. I just want to be alone.. is that so hard to ask for?

"go away." I said raspily, I didn't even notice I had been crying this whole time. Frack. Against what I asked, my door creaked open, the floorboards bending under whoever was intruding on my dark cave-room.

"Can we talk?" was all I heard... THE voice. HIS voice. I curled farther into my comforter, not wanting to look at him at all... I still wasn't over seeing him that day all broken on the floor of the bus' bathroom...

Can't I just have something my way for once?

I loved him. I still loved him after all this time, and there was no changing that no matter how hard I tried to forget about him this past year...

I eventually acted against my original plan of just staying silent and not acknowledging his presence to look up from my pillow, widening my eyes and raised an eyebrow at him, making it seem like I was shocked he was standing there although I really wasn't surprised he was there... I was in a way, but I expected this. I straightened my back out as I sat up, leaning against my head board, hugging my knees to my chest nodding, scooting over on my bed for him to sit down, patting the side of my bed. All I wan;t to do right now was cry out my frustrations to the world.. not talk to the man that has the power to tear me apart right here and now.