Irregular

Chapter 13

It's rained every day since Kayden's death. I believe that's a way Kayden is telling me he's okay. I know that sounds weird, but he always loved the rain. I found it strange how much he enjoyed the rain, usually people hate it.

         "Now we have an excuse to do nothing." He would say. He claimed the rain calmed him and he wish that it would rain every day. I thought he was crazy, still do. But, now the rain kind of calms me. It's like he's still here, just in a different way.

I'm not sure how many days it's been, I just know its rained. I usually just lay in Dugger's bed and watch it fall through his bedroom window. Every once in a while, he comes in and offers me food. He's worried about me. It's sweet, but I'm fine. I just really want to be left alone.

Sometimes I'll fall asleep and dream about Kayden. It starts out at the party whenever I first saw him. He made me feel comfortable at that dumb party Macy and Andrew drug me to. But then as he is talking to me, I stab him. Then I jump awake. Every single time I fall asleep that's my dream. So, I'm staying awake.

         "Zinn?" Dugger slowly opens the door.

         "I'm not hungry."

         "Okay." He sets the plate of fruit on his dresser. "You want to go to town with me? Getting out of this house might make you feel a little better."

         "No."

         "Marah is going with me."

         "Okay."

        "Everyone misses you, Zinn."

         "Okay."

         "Zinnia, you're going to have to get up at some point. You've been lying there for over 3 weeks now."

         "That's not true, I got up to use the bathroom like five minutes ago."

         "Zinn."

         "DUGGER!" I shout.

He stares at me and nods. "I'm just worried about you."

         "You should be."

He sighs, "Do you want me to bring you anything back from town?"

         "You know what, let me go." I stand up.

         "Go to town?"

         "Yes."

         "Okay. I'll go tell Marah you're coming."

         "No, I want to go alone."

         "That's fine too."

         "Just give me a list of the stuff I need to get for everyone and some money."

Dugger pulls out a piece of paper and $100 bill. Where he gets this money from, I have no clue. "Don't spend it all in one place." He giggles.

         "Thanks." I snatch it and walk out of the room.

Marah is sitting in front of the television, Lymiex is drawing, Damien in the kitchen, and the twins are probably in their bedroom. This place is hell. It's like freaking groundhog day.

         "Zinn!" Lymiex shouts. "You're up!"

         "She's going to the store for us."

         "Oh, I want to come!" Marah jumps up off the couch.

         "I think I'm going to go by myself, Marah."