BEN drowned x reader (Threads) [Complete]

CH.10 "from giving up"

Me and Carlos were hanging out at a Chinese buffet, I was certainly filled but Carlos still had a plate left of sweets with fried meats aside from them. He was probably gonna go down for more so I waited silently. Occasionally checking my phone for texts, or notifications from apps. We were only out for a couple hours so it was 9 pm exactly. I looked up and our bill finally came, with a couple fortune cookies. I looked at it. $50, we can split this. "what's the bill?" Carlos asked with various foods in his mouth. "50 bucks, I wanna split it though." I shrugged. "okay" he slid $20 over the table and I put down $30, 20+30=50. Yeah yeah. Carlos finished and grabbed the bill and we walked to the counter giving her the cash and bill and exchanging a thank you and goodbye and leaving the place. Everything else is probably closing so we might as well just go home. The wind was a cold breeze and I zipped up my sweater. Carlos didn't look affected. He had a sweater with a pattern that I've seen somewhere, my neighbor downstairs, Lambert, might have been wearing the same sweater. I know they know each other so they might be good bros and wear the same sweaters all the time. Lambert is Harpers brother. I don't know too much about them but Carlos explained a little bit about them. I'll hang out with them sometime soon, to get to know them better. Lambert's actually pretty cute. But you know who exceeds cuteness? BEN. I'm not even gonna lie. BEN does, I don't like him too much but he's like- boy I don't know. I'd love to get to know him better and I'd actually date him. I refuse to date someone without knowing a thing about them, like I'm not gonna date someone and not even know what they like to do on dates? This is what tonight was suppose to be about, but unlike BEN, my friends don't lie to me. I looked up, stopping my thoughts. We were already here, at the apartment building. I unlocked the door with my keys, and we both walked inside. Carlos walking to the direction his girlfriends door was and I was walking upstairs to my own complex. We both said our goodbyes before so. I was tired and had work in the morning so I might as well just head to bed as soon as I get in my room. I wonder if BEN is back from wherever he is. Probably. I shrugged, opening my door. BEN wasn't in the living room so he was probably somewhere else..Too tired to care, I'm going to bed. I walked to my room and crawled in my bed. I crawled on top of cold, wet, skin. Turning on the light. it was just BEN, goddamn it BEN. He just smiled and I turned off the light rolling on top of him and getting into the covers. I don't care if he was in bed with me I'm just gonna go to bed. I felt arms wrap around me and pull me close. "goddamn it BEN" I said groggily, too tired to tell him to go away. I closed my eyes and ignored him. "goodnight, y/n" he whispered. But at that point I was asleep.