Love Me Again

Know You Hate To Confess

So here is the nineteenth chapter.

Anyway, I hope you like it.

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Song: Needed Me- Rihanna

Ryder's POV:

I had shot out of bed as soon as I hung up on Natalia. What was she thinking? She was drunk, high and driving at 100 mph. Did she have a death wish? I put on my sneakers and hoodie while rushing out of the door all at the same time. I checked my phone to see she had sent me her location. What the hell was she doing that far at this time? 

It took me twenty minutes to reach her destination. Her car was parked on the side of the rode. I immediately got out and ran to her. My heart stopped as soon as I laid my eyes on her. She looked so weak, so pale. She looked dead. There was blood on her hands and knees. I opened the car door. It was freezing inside. Why was the a.c. on? That too in the middle of winter? And she didn't even lock the car. She had dark circles under her eyes. I had never seen her like this before. What happened?

I touched her. Her skin was like ice. I checked her pulse. I let out a sigh of relief when I felt it. She was shivering. I took off my hoodie and put it on her. She wasn't even wearing a seatbelt. It hurt looking at her like that. It hurt so bad. It's the same pain she felt when she saw you kissing Susan.'  I carried her to my car. I placed her in the passenger seat as if she were a fragile porcelain doll. As if she would break. 'She's already broken, Ryder. What do you want? Turn her into dust?'

"Why do you do this to yourself, Natalia? Why?" I whispered into her ear. I wish she could hear me. 'She wouldn't care if you were in pain. You're the reason she's like this.'

I went back to her car, switched off the engine and locked it up. I would get it back to her house in the morning. I made sure to turn on the heater. I looked over at Natalia. She was still out cold. I had done this to her. I had turned the Angel in her into a devil. It was all my fault. And I would never forgive myself for it.

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To say her room was a mess would b an understatement. Bottles of alcohol and cigarettes everywhere. The thing that caught my attention was the broken bottle and mirror. I could see blood on some of the peices. That explained the blood on her hands and knees.

I laid her on her bed. I then went to her closet to get some warmer clothes for her. 'Are you really going to change her clothes, Ryder?' I had no other option. I wouldn't look at her naked. I also grabbed a wet washcloth to try to get the blood off her. I made my way back to her. She was still sound asleep.

I cleaned the blood. Now I had to change her clothes. I took in a deep breath. I quickly took off her top. I kept my eyes on her face. I wasn't going to stare at a girl topless. I wasn't a pervert. I quickly grabbed the new top I had chosen and put it on. The hardest part was buttoning it up. I did it quickly so I didn't get a chance to see her naked. I saw the heart tattoo on her arm. She hadn't gotten it removed yet. As soon as I was done with the last button, I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding. I then did the same for her shorts. I didn't take my hoodie back.

I then got up and tried to clean up some of the broken glass. I got most of it cleaned up. It was 2:30 by the time I was done. I tucked her into bed and looked at her one last time before leaving.'Stay away from her Ryder. You're the cause of her pain. You're the reason she's like this. Just stay away from her.' My conscience was right. I should stay far far away from her. Just as I was about to leave she grabbed my hand. My entire body tensed up at her touch.