Nalu: The Playboy's Ex

Chapter three

Me: HELLO! And welcome back to-
Everyone: Nalu: The Playboy's Ex!
Mira: you must fix da Nalu!
Me: *laughing*
Mira: what?
Me: autocorrect changed Nalu into anal...*laughs* oh where's my innocence?
Mira: *smirks*
Nalu: uhhh....O/////O
Me: *wipes tear from eye* anyway, let's start!

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The shopping trip wasn't as fun as I thought it'd be. I used to love shopping in high school but after uni...I guess things change. I'd bought a tight blue dress that showed off my curves. Erza bought a new armour set, where she found it I don't want to know. Mira bought a white dress in the same style as her red one. Juvia bought a blue ornamental flower. Levy bought an orange headband and a dress that was a little too big for her. Melody bought a maroon hoodie, but later returned it when she remembered she already had that hoodie.

I climb into my car, throw the bag with my dress in into the back seat and sigh. I place my elbows on the steering wheel and place my head on my hands. I miss my old life. Everyone was trying to make it seem less awkward...but everything reminded me of the incident. My parents dying in front of my eyes. Mel and I getting kidnapped. Asaka......Igneel.... even though we didn't talk about it today, other than with Mel in the cinema, I could see it in their eyes. The memory was still fresh in their minds. A tear rolls down my cheek but I wipe it away as quickly as it forms. I just wanted everything to be normal again...

I turn the key in the ignition and pull out of the car park. I place my ticket in the machine and pull out onto the road. The picture of Natsu catching my eye. Why is that even still there? Oh yeah...I put it on with super glue and can't get it off...what was I thinking? The last thing I need right now is to be thinking about him! His onyx eyes. His pink (Natsu: Its salmon....why am I even bothering?), spiky hair. The way he held me. Gentle but tight and secure.... when he held my hand it was tight, like he didn't want to lose me...how he always kissed me softly. Never asking for us to sleep together in a sexual way. How my body fit perfectly with his....my head in the crook of his neck....I missed those times....why? Why did it have to happen? I wipe another tear from my face as I indicate left. (Me: rant time: LOOK PEOPLE! Indicating! It's something you do when you're turning in your car so you don't crash or hit pedestrians! Wow! Where did this great technology come from!? *<-- note the sarcasm* honestly the amount of times I've nearly been hit by a non-indicating car is ridiculous...AND THEY BLAMED ME! *continuous muttering and grumbling*)

I stop the car to let a couple cross the road. They smile and help their hands up to me. They were holding hands and laughing. I remember when that was me...No! I must think positively! I shake the tears away and continue driving home.

I open the front door and see Natsu standing there. The memory returns and I groan. Not now...
"Lucy? Can we talk?" Natsu asks, he genuinely sounds upset.
"Not now Natsu..." I say. Butterflies appear in my stomach at the sound of his name but I shush them.
"Please Lucy." He looks at me. His perfect onyx eyes shiny, like he's been crying. Every fibre of my being wants to run to him, to throw my arms around him and tell him everything will be ok.
"I'm sorry Natsu....I can't..."I say, ignoring my body's wants. I can't...I close the door and walk up the stairs to my room. I place the dress in my wardrobe before falling head first into the bed. I really need to move out.

Before long there's a knock at the door.
"Come in." I say, my voice muffled by the pillow. I hear the door open and soon close. I look up to see Wendy standing there. She looks upset. I quickly sit up, big sister mode activated. "Wendy? What's wrong?"
"It's just..." Wendy starts. I motion for her to sit next to me on the bed. She does so, hands in lap and head down. "Ever since you and Natsu got back you've been different. You both were so happy, not even the world could take away your smiles, but now....you avoid each other...or you avoid him. Natsu hasn't been his cheerful self lately and I miss it. I miss when we were all happy." I wipe a tear away from Wendy's eyes.
"Wendy..." I say, at a lost for words. I can't help but feel sorry for her. Igneel's death hit her hard, Grandeeny was trying to smile for her but she knew, deep down, she was broken. Natsu and I weren't talking and she didn't know why...
"I just want my family back!" She exclaims before letting all of her emotions out. Her sadness, comfusement, anger, grief and pain. I pull her into a tight hug and allow a few tears to fall out.
"I know..." I say. "I want that too." I pull away from her and look her in the eye. "I know things haven't been easy on you and I'm sorry. But I promise, no matter what happens, everything will be ok." I give her my best smile.
"Do you think...you and Natsu will get back together? Or at least be friends again?" She asks. I'm slightly taken aback.
"I....I don't know Wendy...I'd like to think that maybe we have a chance but..." I say, trying to put my feelings into words. "But every time I see him....the memories...the pain....it all comes flooding back to me....I....I need more time...."
"Natsu said a similar thing to mum..." Wendy says. "He said he feels horrible for what he did to you and remembers every time he sees you, and he doesn't feel right without you by his side." I push some of Wendy's hair behind her ears. She wore it in pigtails but some had fallen out. I feel fuzzy inside knowing that Natsu thought that. Maybe we have a chance?
"It'll be ok." Is all I can think of to say. What do I say to that? I pull Wendy into another hug before she leaves and heads to her room. I fall back on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Why, oh why, is my life so complicated?