Faded Blades (Sans x Reader)

(16)

----TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE WHOLE CHAPTER----

"What?!" Ink, Dream, and Blue shouted all at once. I winced and hissed at how loud they were.

"I would never give away my friend over to some sketchy looking artist and skeleton in a cape that claim they are trying to save the multiverse from chaotic destruction. As far as I'm concerned, I am not going to be harmed by my friend." I growled out, ready to say the code and find Error.

"What do mean?! We didn't say that, we only said we needed to stop him." Ink gaped as I began to mutter. He looked at me confused before all three of them jumped and a portal opened behind me.

"Don't follow me." I hissed and jumped backwards into the portal, closing it as soon as I was through. I grunted as my back hit the floor.

I sighed softly and got up, climbing up the loops of strings until I was sitting with the puppets in a makeshift hammock of strings. I here a soft him and fuzzing noises.

"(Y/n)? Why are you up there with the puppets?" Error asked, sniffling quietly while his voice seemed to not glitch.

I heard the sniffle and instantly swung down the strings, rolling onto the floor and running to Error. I tackled him in a hug as he let out a petrified scream.  I pulled down my hood so then my (h/c) hair would fall onto my shoulders and my face was shown. My mask still covered my nose and mouth while my (e/c) eyes shined brightly with worry. I looked at Error while hugging him, seeing his eye sockets were damp and he was glitching.

"Error, who made you cry?" I asked, my tone turning completely serious.

"N-No one." He lied, sounding pretty convincing. I put my hands on the sides of his face and put my forehead against his, his forehead wasn't warm so he doesn't have a fever.

"Don't lie to me." I told him, his face beginning to turn blue.

"I-I'm not! I'm not crying, no one made me cry!" Error shouted, tears starting to fall down his face.

"It's because of Ink, isn't it?" I asked him. He looked at me in shock.

"H-How do you know that name?" Error asked, sniffling.

"He tried to convince me a moment ago to help catch you or help them catch you by telling them your location, but I told them no. I'm a good friend, and I'd never give away my best friend's location to some shady people." I told him, smiling brightly. "Also, I kinda need a portal home now." I told him quietly.

Nodding, Error hugged me and whispered his thanks before opening a portal for me and letting me leave. I waved bye to him and went through the portal, frowning as soon as it closed. Once it closed I noticed the house was completely dark and people were probably in bed. I sighed and laid down on the couch, beginning to cry softly. I couldn't go back into Sans' room. He's not happy with me, but I don't blame him. I continued to cry and took off my surgical mask, putting it down on the coffee table. I grabbed a throw pillow and used it as something to cry into as small thoughts started to come back to me.

He can't love you, he probably doesn't even trust you.

I cried harder but quietly into the pillow.

You are an unbearable nuisance to all of them. You don't belong here, just die.

I sniffled and put down the pillow, getting up. I walked to the kitchen and grabbed one of the small knives, taking it to the bathroom. I closed the door quietly and slowly began to cut, my hands shaking uncontrollably as the wounds burned intensely. I continued to cut, going on and on until I had 9 cuts on each arm. I watched the crimson liquid leak down my arm and began to shake even more while standing up, turning on the sink and washing the cuts so then they wouldn't get infected. I gently dabbed the wounds with a towel and got bandages from under the sinks, wrapping them around my arms.

I put the knife down and looked at myself in the mirror, my mind telling me how bad it was and how I should look prettier. I began to cry more and went back into the kitchen. I cleaned the knife and put it in the drying rack, walking back over to the couch. I cried a bit more into the pillow before putting my mask back on and falling asleep.