Happy and Sad // SOLBY

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COLBY POV.

I was watching Riverdale and looking through my phone, cause i had nothing else to do today and im lazy.

As i was scrolling through my feed i saw one of Sams tweets.

Have any of you guys ever hated something with a passion because its just so wrong and grosses you out.

I noticed corey was tagged in it and all the comments were about how people hate gays and how they are disgusting.

Tears were starting to form in my eyes so i decided to turn my phone off and put it in my pocket.

What the fuck is wrong with you. You are a disgusting human being.

"No. Im not," i whispered to myself getting up quickly. And wiping my tears.

I wont let my thoughts reck me right now.

Right as i thought that Aaron walked in the door.

"Hey Colbs whatcha doing,"  he hopped on the couch looking tired.

"Nothing just watching Netflix," i sat back on the couch and checked the time. "Jesus its already 9," i put my phone back down.

"Yeah you didnt notice," Aaron looked at me wierd.

"No ive been watching Riverdale," i looked at him honestly suprised.

"Oh okay." He looked at me some more.  "Yeah you dont look so good by the way,"

"Yeah I know Sam told me this morning. Dont worry though im fine,"

I want to die.

"Oh okay, well im going to bed see you in the morning,"  he started towards the stairs.

"Goodnight see you tomorrow," i went upstairs after him and went into my bathroom and looked in the mirror.

Gawd. Your not only a fucking fag, but a fat and ugly one too.

"Ugh true," i sighed and agreed with my thoughts.

You know you want to do it.

I looked towards my drawer.

Come on just a few. It wont hurt anyone. Except you. But you deserve it.

I opened the drawer and sighed.
"I guess a few little ones wouldn't hurt," 

I slowly dragged it across my wrist 3 times.

Watching the blood race down the drain as i rinsed my wrists i heard someone come towards the door.

"Hey Colbs, you in there," i heard Sam knock on the door.

Shit.

I had forgot he wasnt home yet.

"Uh, yeah hold on," i quickly hid my blade and pulled my sleeves down.

"Hey whats up" i opened the door.

"Nothing, just wanted to see what you were doing, and tell you im back," he half smiled.

"Oh okay, i was just gonna go to sleep,"
I walked out of the bathroom to my room.

"Ok cool well goodnight see you tomorrow," he went to his room.

O my god that was a close one.

After i closed and locked my door i went to my desk and found my sleep aid. Melatonin (idk if spelled right but who cares) i took 4 without even thinking and flung myself on my bed. I started to cry but the melatonin made me pass out before i could cry myself to sleep.

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Sorry it feels crappy but i have shit going on so yeah. And i habe to much ideas and not enough time.

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Alright ill update soon.
So goodnight

And see yaaa.

Byeee.

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