Forget me never...

Letter 27

My dear Annie,

I have received your letter and I am happy that you are having a good time in New York with your husband and children. You had your hair cut? I remember seeing many women with their hair short when I went to the Premiere of « Romeo and Juliet » and I told myself that I didn't know if I would dare to get rid of my heavy mane of hair one day. Anyway, it did look practical and easier to maintain. I still remember how I was delighted in front of this fascinating big city. I had noticed that Terry wasn't feeling too well, and I didn't know at that time that he had Susanna's dilemma in his head. The poor guy, he had to pretend in front of me, he really is a very good actor. When I learned the truth, I couldn't be mad at him at first, it must have been so hard for him... We separated and we got in touch later and you know what happened... He married Susanna, he did his duty. Now that she is dead, thank you for the newspaper clipping by the way, I had to see it with my own eyes and it is now engraved in my memory.

« Susanna Grandchester, née Marlowe, died of a long and painful illness. She was married to the actor Terrence Graham Grandchester whom she had saved in an accident on stage, which had cost her a leg, source of her sickness. Susanna Grandchester has written many theater plays many of which have known a real success on Broadway. Terrence Grandchester has made no declaration at the time of going to press.»

I am very sad for Terry, he has lost his wife. A wife with whom he lived for all these years. He is also a public figure, so when something like that happens, all eyes are on him. He must mourn... To contact him after his mourning period? I haven't taken any decision, but I will eventually tell him that he has a son... You tell me to stop punishing myself? I wonder if Terry will forgive me for having abandoned him once again to his duty. Maybe he will be mad at me and not love me anymore. After all, he was married to Susanna Marlowe for all these years. Does he know about my separation from Albert? I remember he had learned of our wedding in the newspaper and he was so hurt... It seems to me that I will always hurt him, don't you find it so? I don't want to make projects, and I will wait for Terry to contact me, if he wants to, if he is aware that I am a free woman. I know that you would surely wish me to jump on the first train to New York... but it wouldn't be suitable... He has just lost his wife, I cannot land this way in his life while all eyes are on him...

Thank you very much, Annie, for your letter. Yes, next time, leave Alistair with us, we will be happy to keep him. Janice must be really pretty with all the new fashionable dresses. You are having a lot of fun with her, just like a live doll! She likes it, that's the essential thing. I am very happy for you, Annie. Another baby? That's wonderful! God did say : «Be fruitful and multiply».

I am eager to see you again! I will come to Chicago for a couple of charity galas... and we will see for my hair, I want to see what you look like and if it is really easier to care for, then I will decide.

I can't wait to see you, sweetie!

Candy