Forget me never...

Letter 45

My dear Romeo,

How are you? And how is Anthony-William doing? I am sure that he's very happy to be living with you. I left him with you also to be forgiven. Does he like his new school?

I'm writing to apologize and beg your pardon. I know that learning you had a son for all this time was a big shock for you. It's what I wanted to tell you when I answered your first letter. I wanted to tell you that we had a son together so that you would have all the elements of the story and so you could take the decision that would seem to you to be the best. To live without you was very hard, the presence of Anthony-William has attenuated a lot of things. It's for him that I woke up each morning and also for him that I lived. I prayed everyday that you were fine and that you would forgive me when you learned the truth someday.

I don't regret what happened between us, even if Susanna was bedridden, because it produced Anthony-William, the most marvelous thing that ever happened to me. I know that you had only your duty and you couldn't enjoy your son, or see him grow up day by day. But I did what I thought was best at the time. Now that I have grown up a bit, maybe I would have made another decision.

You ignored me when I came to leave you your son, even though I was dying to run into your arms so that you could hug me so strongly. You hurt me my love, a lot. But I forgive you and I understand. Forgive me Terry, and let's go forward. We have the opportunity to finally live our dream, be a family... It seemed to me that you wanted many children, no? I beg you my love, stop sulking and let's continue with our lives. I am also ready to hear any decision that you could have taken. But you told me in your letter that nothing had changed for you... so I will be patient and wait until you calm down. But don't wait too long, Romeo. I miss you.

Your Juliet,

Candy