Forget me never...

Letter 36

My dear Mum,

It is always a pleasure to receive news from you. I am well and dad is too. I hope that you are also well. What you have told me is the most stupefying news that I've heard... Candy and Albert have not been married for many years? Of course nobody was aware of it. They kept it secret this time, not putting this news in the papers like they did for their wedding. I have the feeling that the news of their wedding had been expressly put in the papers to oblige me to stay with Susanna and that the news of their separation was kept secret to keep me from leaving Susanna. I recognize there my dear Candy. I don't know if I must rejoice because she is free or be mad because she hid it from me. She absolutely wanted to make sure that I would do my duty this time. She felt guilty of being with me when Susanna was bedridden. I still don't understand how she can put someone else's happiness before our own. But that is part of the qualities that make me love her so much. She thought about Susanna, during our first breakup and during our second one too. Must I begrudge her to make it so that I would be sure to do my duty? I am now free to go and find her and be with her without any guilt. I may not have been happy, but Susanna is very happy. Maybe that when I was a teenager, I didn't care much about this fact. Susanna saved my life and my gentleman's education has made me stay with her by duty, because she saved my life and lost her leg and finally her life after many years. But now that I am a man, I understand better what I have done and the fact that Susanna was happy, despite her ailing health... I am relieved and I can now go and see Candy, after my mourning period, to ask her to give us another chance. We still have the rest of our lives before us... We are not yet 30 years old... Thank you very much mum, for the information that you have given me. I have time to digest all of this during my mourning period... then we will see where destiny leads us.

There is one thing that you didn't tell me in your letter, about Albert. Are you two together now? Don't you find it a bit strange that he was Candy's husband? Well, you are a big girl. As long as Albert is not with Candy, I am alright with that. If he makes you happy, that is all that matters.

About « Hamlet : prince of Denmark », it would make me very happy to get up on stage to play it with you in the role of Gertrude. It would be a dream come true for me to play on stage with the great Eleonor Baker, the one who gave me birth and her talent. You can tell Robert that I agree for « Hamlet » and for any other project that he has in mind.

I could get some secondary roles in the London theaters, now I was given the role of « Richard III ». He is a very sly character and very amusing to play. It is one of the things that I like with playing comedy, one can be whatever one wants on stage. I still remember when I told Candy about that. I was so carried away that I took her in my arms, but Miss Prude pushed me away... You know that she slapped me when I dared to kiss her? I know it wasn't very gentlemanly on my part. We should only kiss our wife and after the wedding, but it was irresistible. I had to kiss her... and I was her first. I would have liked to have her with me on stage, I had to imagine her face whenever I had to kiss an actress on stage... I am eager for my mourning period to be over so that I can run and join her and I will never let anything else separate us.

Thank you again for this wonderful news. I love you mum.

Your son,

Terry