Monolouges and Rants

My gay life, story, and message for all

So to start this out, I'm gay if that wasn't obvious before. To be more specific, I'm pansexual.

And I'm damn well happy with it.

Now I haven't had too many issues with people about who I am. No one really cares too much. Which is surprising since I live in the Bible Belt.

There's have been a few that voice their opinions that they don't like it about me or friends.

But it never really had any real effect on me.

Now to put this in perspective, I've been openly gay for 4-5 years now. Had a lot of boyfriends and girlfriends.

And to be honest, I prefer girls over guys.

In fact, I have a wonderful girlfriend of almost 2 years and couldn't be happier with her. She means everything to me.

But me going on about my love life isn't the point of this.

What I want to talk about is the things that I have struggled with as a openly gay woman.

I'm the only gay one in my family. Everyone else is straight. Now I never thought that was much of an issue. Until things took a change.

My older brother started to reject me for being gay and didn't want me around my niece (who is only 1) because, in his words, "I don't want her influencing her and making her gay."

Now anyone can tell you what utter bullshit that is.

But I have ranted about that way too much now.

The main point is, my brother is against me.

Now I believed my parents were mostly accepting. Sure they weren't comfortable with it but they never tried to change me. Just thought it was a phase I would grow out of.

That thought was changed earlier.

I was wearing the first pride shirt I had ever owned and was extremely happy with it.

Well my mom didn't think the same.

She called me out and bashed me like I was a complete stranger. Even called me a disappointment and disturbed to my face.

It really stung to hear that come from someone who had previously defended me.

I won't go into it but it wasn't pretty.

Now, my point of telling this isn't to gain sympathy or pity. I don't want it.

I'm writing this to tell everyone about my own experiences so far.

I want to send a message out to everyone out there who might feel like you are entirely alone or won't ever get to be yourself.

You will never be alone.

The LGBT community will always stand by your side to help you fight.

If you are stuck in an abusive situation, you will get out one day.

We all must stand together as one and rid the world of this hate.

It doesn't matter if you are gay, straight, bi, pan, trans, or anything. If you are a person who believes that love is love, then fight with us.

Stand up for the trans kid being bullied.

Be there for the gay one who is made fun of.

Stand by the girls hold hands in the hall.

I went my whole life without anyone standing up for me. I had no one except for me, myself, and I.

So I became someone who will stand up for others.

I stand by anyone who needs someone by their side.

And in the time I've been doing this, I've seen what just a little kindness and love can do to a person.

The smiles through to tears, the genuine happiness on their face, everything about helping someone is the best feeling in the world.

It may not seem like much to you, but to them, what you say could be what stops them from going home and committing suicide.

No matter who you are, I ask you to do the same. Fight for anyone who needs help.

Let's make this world a place that's welcoming to all, no matter race, sexuality, identity, religion, etc.