Heavy in your arms (nashxcameron)

Til I See You Again

We entered our favorite restaurant which was a small Italian place.

"Just as I remember it" I said as I looked around, waiting to be seated.

"Hello, how many?" A short blonde girl, the hostess, said

"Two" Shawn answered. She grabbed the menus and lead us to a booth near the back.

"Here ya go, what can I get y'all to drink?" She said. It was obvious that she liked Shawn but Shawn seemed oblivious to it.

"Iced tea and a coke please" Shawn answered, hardly paying this poor girl any attention. It's sweet that he remembered what I always get to drink when we go out to eat.

As she walked away looking slightly disappointed Shawn wasn't seemly interested, I leaned over and softly said

"Do you realize that girl keeps flirting with you?" With that Shawn started to turn red

"No she wasn't" he responded sheepishly, he was practically red.

She brought the drinks and took our orders and left swiftly after.

"Way to go Shawn, you pissed off the waitress. If she spits in our food I'm going to kill you" I said jokingly.

"I didn't mean to, should I go apologize?" Shawn responded. I swear he is too nice and innocent sometimes.

"Calm down I'm kidding Shawn, although you should go on dates, have fun." I said putting emphasis on the last part. Sometimes Shawn just gets so caught up with what he is doing that he forgets to enjoy life.

"I already do like someone" he muttered almost to where I couldn't hear.

"Who is it Shawn? Who does lil Shawn have a crush on? "

I said teasingly.

"No one, it doesn't matter. They don't like me back" he responded. It was weird, we tell each other everyone so a crush should not matter.

"Come on, just tell m-" as I was taking I looked up and saw Nash walk into the room by himself.

Of fucking course he would walk into the same place I was at. It's fate's cruel sick joke. I ducked down like a child but I don't care, I'm not ready.

Shawn looks at me funny then looks in Nash's direction.

"Cameron, you can't keep hiding. Just talk to him" Shawn said

"Come on, fifteen seconds of courage Camy, you deserve answers"

He was right, Nash owed me answers. So I took a deep breath and walked towards the booth he was sitting at.

"Is this spot taken?"

Nash looked up and sat there frozen in shock for a second. He eventually came to his senses. And said "um.. No, please sit down. If you want.. Um no it's not taken... Please sit"

I slid into the seat across from him. Our legs Brushed against each other, god how I have missed touching him.

We sat there in silence for a few minutes. Nash looked like he was scared to say anything, hell, I was too.

"Why?" I asked trying to sound strong.

"I'm so sorry, I.. I just didn't mean for things to get that far"

"What do you mean that far? What was supposed to happen? Only bang him a few times?" I said trying not to shout.

"No, it started as a one time thing. And I felt so bad, I really did. But then it happened more and then feelings got involved"

I can't believe what I'm hearing. I hoped he would beg for me forgiveness.

"What are you telling me Nash?" I asked, my voice cracking at the end.

"I love you with all my heart, but I still have feelings for him"

"Screw you Nash" I shouted, letting the tears fall. I stood up and ran out, ignoring the looks people were giving me. I ran to the side of the building, stoping trying to catch my breath as the sobs raked out of my body.

"Cameron! Cam! Camy! Where are you?" I heard Shawn scream out, but I couldn't catch my breath enough to answer. I slid down the wall, not holding back anything.

I saw Shawn turn the corner and rush towards me.

"Calm down Camy, you're gonna give yourself a panic attack." Shawn said embracing me. Stroking my hair, trying to soothe me.

Once I calmed down enough, we headed to the car and drove home. I walked upstairs and threw off my clothes except for my boxers and Shawn walked in to check in on me.

"Do you want anything?" Shawn asked softly.

"No thanks Shawn" I answered as I crawled into bed.

As Shawn walked out, I called to him

"wait Shawn... Can you stay with me tonight" I said pathetically.

Shawn smiled sadly and turned around and stripped to his boxers and got into the bed. I snugged up to his warm body and breathed in his scent. He wrapped his arms around me and started humming. I slowly drifted off listening to Shawn humming.

"Goodnight love"

AUTHORS NOTE

SAD CHAPTER SORRY

SORRY ITS UP LATE

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