What's Wrong With Us? {Cashby}

19| Messy Realization

I want someone to cuddle 😴🤗

Okay guys here we go the chapter I've been waiting for and well I'm sure you all have been waiting for it too. Okay enough of this authors note, here we go!
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Austin's POV

I turned to see Alan running towards me.
"Austin are you okay?" He said and placed a hand on my shoulder. I looked down at him. His beautiful brown eyes held so much concern. I shook my head.
"What's going on?"
"I'm...I'm confused." I told him truthfully.
"About what?"
"You."
"Me? What about me?" His eyebrows scrunched up in confusion.

"Never in my life have I had the urge to hold someone's hand like I did back there. Never. It doesn't bother me when you talk about your sexuality, in a way it's soothing. I came into this thing against everything but now you've got my mind all mixed up!" I tangled a hand in my hair and clenched my other fist. My breathing was heavy and I couldn't seem to keep my heart from racing. Saying this all out loud was getting to be too much.

"Austin calm down." Alan said and placed a hand on my shoulder.
"I can't! I'm nineteen and it feels as if I've been lied to all my life, that I've lied to myself! The thought of being...being gay never crossed my mind, it's wrong. A guy is not supposed to like another guy, right? That's what I've always been told. But if that's the case why do I find myself liking you?"

I was desperate at this point. I just wanted answers. Was being gay really like a disease? Was I around them so much that I caught their 'sickness'. I looked at Alan pleadingly as he tried to calm me down. I had to know. I had to know if all of this was just a mixed up part of my mind or if it was possible for me to like him.

Without thinking I pulled Alan close to me and slammed my lips to his.

Alan's POV

I was shocked but at the same time I couldn't bring myself to pull away. His lips were so soft and I had never been kissed like this before. It held so much emotion, relief, sadness, anger, confusion, all of it wrapped up into one motion. Austin gripped my hip tightly and pushed me up against his car, never breaking the kiss.

As the kiss was slowing down I felt a wetness on my cheeks that definitely wasn't coming from me. Once Austin pulled away it broke my heart. Tears were trailing slowly down his cheeks and his expression was that of someone who was confused and scared.

"Austin it's okay." I told him softly. It was kind of shocking seeing his reaction to being confused about his sexuality. With me it was like I had always just known, but Austin was a mess. He was clutched close to me and I cold feel his heart beating rapidly.
"Alan I don't know what to do." He said desperately.

"Do what you feel like doing." He thought a moment and simply nodded his head at me before once again pulling me into a kiss. I kind of hated to say it but I seemed to melt into it. I kissed back with more enthusiasm than the last time. I had never thought of Austin in this way, the thought never entered my mind because well he was straight. Now though I was seeing him differently and I liked it.

Austin was moving to lace a hand in my hair when there was a loud shout.
"What is going on here!?!" The booming voice of Rachel Adams rang out. Austin immediately pulled back, a petrified look on his face. His eyes widened and he hastily pushed me away from him. I turned around to see Mrs. Adams basically running at us.  

"What in gods name is going on here?" She said in a threatening voice. Austin started to stutter and I took a deep breath.
"It was my fault. I kissed him. He didn't want any part of it."
"Alan what is the reasoning behind this?!" She demanded and stepped closer to me.
"I-I was trying to prove a point." The closer she stepped the further I stepped back, until I hit Austin's chest. Her face was merely centimeters away form mine now.

"Listen here you disgrace of a human being," she began. I felt Austin's fingers grab the back of my shirt and he pulled me the tiniest bit closer to him. "I will not tolerate this kind of behavior. I will be informing your Dad and there will be consequences." She then grabbed my wrist with extreme force and dragged me back to the building. I cast a glare over my shoulder and saw Austin staring at me. He started to come after me but I only shook my head. In order to save him some repercussions I would take the fall.

She dragged me all the way to her office, causing me to trip over my feet constantly. When we walked through the area we had our meetings everyone was confused and Vic and Frank yelled at her to let me go. She only ignored them and continued on her way.

Once we got to her office she slung me towards a chair and huffed as she grabbed her phone. I could barely hear my Dad on the other end as he picked up and she explained my acts of sin. She slammed the phone down and looked at me with a sickening smile.
"He'll be here shortly."

And believe me it didn't take long.

She glared at me the whole time and once her office door swung open no one had time to same anything before my Dad was swinging his hand back and then slapping me across the face. My head jerked back at the movement and my hand immediately went up to cover the stinging area.
"What the hell is your problem!?" He screamed as I cowered back in my seat.