What's Wrong With Us? {Cashby}

30| Slow And Steady

HERES AN EARLY UPDATE GUYS BECAUSENIM SO FREAKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW I GOT INTO MY DREAM SCHOOL AND OMG I DIDNT THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE. IM STILL NOT BREATHING RIGHT.

This chapter is dedicated to the lovely and amazing @PrincesssAustin
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Alan's POV

"Alan what do you think would happen if your Dad found out?" Austin asked. We were laying in his bed, in each other's arms, simply talking and having a lazy day.
"I don't really know Austin." I said truthfully. "I just know he would be pissed beyond belief."
"I don't want you getting hurt." I sat up and looked at Austin.
"What do you mean? I'm not going to. He won't find out."
"But what if he does?"  Austin sighed. "I don't want to be the reason you get hurt."
"Are you saying you don't want to be together?" I asked quietly. Austin's eyes widened and he shook his head vigorously.

"No, no, no Baby. That's not what I mean at all." He grabbed me gently and pulled me to him. "I can't even think of you not being with me anymore." He kissed the top of my head. "I just hate the thought of someone hurting you."
"I'll be fine Austin." I said with a half smile.
"Still. No one should lay a single hand on you. You're too precious." He said and pulled me closer.

I looked up at him and smiled. His eyes were the deepest shade of brown I had ever seen and they swirled with emotion as I looked in them. He had this cute little smile on his face and I loved how the sides of his mouth crinkled together. His lips were thin but oh so heavenly. I couldn't resist as I leaned up and placed a soft kiss to his lips. I felt him smile against me and pretty soon I was laying under him as he pressed small kisses down my neck. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back as he sucked softly on the skin. I felt one of his hands slowly slip under my shirt. Goosebumps left a trail behind his touch, causing me to shiver.

I pulled his face away from my neck and back to my lips. He was addicting. He tasted like vanilla and mint. Those two don't seem so appealing together but when it was him it was like a drug. We kissed lazily. Absolutely in no rush to end things. His hands ran up and down my sides and one of mine combed through his short hair.  Austin and I had had quite a few make out sessions before and each one was better than the last. I couldn't get enough of him. My favorite part about it however was the slow pace. Neither of us was in a hurry and it felt nice to just have someone kissing you slowly. Each kiss held so much emotion and half the time I could swear I got drunk off of it.

Austin and I hadn't went more than a few longing touches so it surprised me when his hand slipped under the band of my sweatpants. I froze a moment but relaxed when his hand just settled on my butt. Austin had a habit of laying his hand there when we cuddled so it wasn't that much of a surprise, the only surprise being that his hand wasn't on my pants but instead in them. We continued kissing for what seemed like hours. I was now straddling him and both of his hands were placed firmly, on the outside of my sweatpants, on both sides of my butt. Our lips were still locked in a lazy kiss and both my hands had found their way under Austin's loose shirt.

I finally pulled away from the addicting boy and hid my face in his neck. He hummed softly in my ear and brung one hand up to rub my lower back.
"I love these moments." I whispered to him.
"So do I. It's so different to what I'm used to and I love it." He said quietly.
"How's it different?" I asked curiously.
"Well first off your a guy, which honestly has nothing to with it but in a way it does because I think it actually makes everything better." He said and I saw his cheeks tint the slighted shade of red. "And I'm so used to everything being fast paced. I'd get a girl, there's be a quick make out season, then a quick quickie. Even with all of my girlfriends it was like that. No one wanted to take it slow. I never knew how much I craved that lazy pace until I met you." He stopped a moment to kiss my lips gently. "I don't want to just kiss you, I want to memorize the feeling of your lips against mine. I want to remember all the details of you. The tiny freckles, the little curves, all of it. I want to do just more than just kiss."

I couldn't help but smile up at him as he thought deeply about it all. What he said made my heart flutter. I really struck gold with Austin. Sure it took some convincing but it was worth it. I never thought going into therapy that he would be my boyfriend. Heck he was straight and trying to convince me to be the same! But I guess it may have been fate, if that's even a thing. Whatever it was I was happy it happened. Austin was becoming my whole world and damn I didn't want to think of a future without him.

We had been together a couple months and I was falling for the boy fast. I had no clue how Austin felt but I knew I wanted this to last.