Forever || magcon

Chapter 33

~Casey's POV~

"Casey?" I heard Nash say. I could barely move. I tried to open my eyes and after a while I finally did.

I looked up and he kissed me on the forehead. He smiled and felt him sit on the bed next to me.

"Casey, I have something to tell you." Nash looked nervous.

"What?"

"You should just read this instead, I wrote it to you a while ago. About one or two years ago." He got the letter from his back pocket and handed it to me.

I opened the letter and saw that Nash had hand written it. I looked at the beginning. I started to read it.

Dear Casey,

I know that after all these years, you don't love me anymore. I know that you probably hate me. You didn't reply after me sending about 395 letters. I mean, a few were pointless, but I still missed you. I thought we were going to stay together forever, I didn't want anything to end.

When I saw a few of the tweets you posted of you and this guy named Luke, I instantly gave up on everything. I had actually become really depressed. I didn't think you remembered me. I had just hoped that you still know my name. All I really wanted was to love you, Casey, and I had my chance. Now, I am going to give someone else that same chance that I had but screwed up.

Love,

Nash xoxo

PS

I love you Casey, I really do. Forever.

I sat there. Speechless. I crippled up the letter and threw it on the floor of the hospital room. I covered my face so and started to cry.

"Case? You okay babe?" He asked.

"Yeah." I regained all my thoughts just said the first thing on my mind. "I'm just confused about my emotions. I'm happy and sad." I sniffled a little.

I turned my head to see Nash now laying next to me in his 'Nashty' t-shirt. I laughed a little and hugged him. He was a little taken aback at first but then he hugged me back tight.

"Thank you." I said "And I'm sorry I never wrote to you. Nash, I feel like I made you depressed and it was all my fault. I'm sorry."

"You shouldn't be. It was my fault." I said.

I took her face in both of my hands. And then I was kissing her before she could say no. And she was kissing me back. I reminded myself that I wasn't ever going to kiss anybody again, everyone except her. Because I knew how miserable I had become without her. She was crying and so was I.

She closed her eyes, and we put our foreheads against each other. Taking in each other as we knew these are the last moments we might share together.

I kissed the faded scars on her wrist. I still think she is beautiful. I don't want to lose my best friend. Not only was she my best friend. She was the love of my life. She was my forever. And that is how long our love will last.

"You'll be forever in my heart. I promise." I cried out.

She giggled. "Good." She whispered. "Because you'll be in mine too, forever"

I held her hand and we stayed there looking up at the ceiling, just feeling each other's presence.

I heard the machine beep and felt her cold lifeless hand in mine. I cried in her lap, trying to hold back the tears but I couldn't.

"Forever." I whispered in reply, even though she couldn't hear.