Is it Enough to Love you (A Josh Hutcherson love story)

Chapter 26: Oblivion

Month number 4, I felt as though I was counting time in prison however I was only counting the time it had been since I had seen Josh. I hadn't heard from him either, he had successfully disconnected himself from me completely and that's what I asked for. That's what I wanted. But it was still the most excruciating pain I had ever felt.

I slid out of bed and scurried to the bathroom taking my hair down and applying my makeup before I threw on some leggings and a t shirt. Silently I slipped into the kitchen and began to boil some water as I waited I hopped up onto the counter and fiddled with my phone until it buzzed in my hands, it was a phone call.

"Why are you calling me so early?" I growled at the person on the other end.

"Do you like it?" He whispered into the phone in a raspy voice.

"Like what?" I giggled as the water boiled and I hurried to shut it off.

"My sexy morning voice."

"Brendan go away." I laughed at him.

"So why aren't you coming to regular high school like a normal person."

"Because my social game sucks and I have a tutor." I re explained my situation for the hundredth time. I was prepared to enter a normal high school life when Michelle under the influence of an unknown source about a while back offered me a private tutor and pushed it. Naturally I accepted out of courtesy and was no longer in need of attending normal school. I had this strong feeling that it was Josh's idea to keep me away from everyone he possibly could who was a guy, I wanted so badly to call him and tell him to screw himself for involving himself in my dating life but I couldn't for that would lead to more than I was prepared to handle.

"I miss you."

"Don't lie to me Brendan."

"Don't assume Im lying."

"Why not?"

"Because you're special to me."

"Lies to strong." I laughed fully aware of the game he was playing and wanting no part of it.

"How would you know that."

"Assumption."

"You think too much."

"Too much to fall for your poorly executed tricks."

"When can I see you?" Brendan asked out of the blue even taking me aback slightly and for a moment he had me at a loss for words.

"When you see Connor you'll probably see me." I answered after a moment hurriedly hanging up in a panic. He knew I was anticipating every move he made and he threw a curve ball at me and I was still at a loss for words.

"Hey you're up early." Connor greeted me walking into the kitchen rubbing his eyes "who were you just talking to?"

"Telemarketers." I lied swallowing hard.

"This early? Wow." He raises his eyebrows showing his surprise.

"Yup." I laughed unsteadily making hot chocolate and scurrying off into the other room leaving Connor rifling through the kitchen on search of food. Suddenly I heard him on the phone with someone else.

"Today? Now? Whatever, my moms working you can come over." Then silence. "Guess who wants to come over, right now." Connor laughed walking into the room.

"I can't imagine."

"Brendan."

"Oh, him? He's a swell kid." I replied mock calmly with a hint of sarcasm slipping into my voice.

"You were on the phone with him earlier weren't you?" Connor raised an eyebrow making surprisingly spot on accusations.

"How did you know?" I grumbled.

"He makes you blush."

"That's a lie!"

"No it's not, you turn a little pink when he flirts with you." It was true I guess, he made me feel different than Josh, I loved Josh, I loved him so much it felt physically painful. My heart actually hurt, he never just said some of the things Brendan did everything was thought through as if our entire relationship was scripted. However, Brendan just said stupid flirty things that didn't always make sense and were made up in a moments time to fill silence. He made me feel like blushing I suppose. It was then that the doorbell rang, I must've spaced out because in the next moment Brendan was standing in front of me.

"Hi." He winked at me staring down at me on the couch.

"Hi." I looked up at him smiling only slightly.

"You're cute."

"Thank you Brendan."

"Can I sit with you?" He smirked.

"No, you can sit on the floor." He sat next to me despite this and threw his legs onto me.

"Jesus why?" I laughed throwing his legs back towards him.

"Oh okay." He chuckled bumping me. I bumped him back half smiled at him. "You're blushing." He smirked at me. I quickly hid my face from him and said nothing until he chuckled again and left the room with Connor.

"I know." I whispered after he left, terrified because Connor had warned me of him but I still felt something, I was never going to admit I may like him because I was still in love with Josh however I was beginning to think that was something that I would have to come to terms with because it would never go away.

I avoided Brendan entirely and slipped up to my room. Once I was in my room I crossed towards the window and sat on the seat, as I stared out the window I suddenly realized it would be all too simple to slid out onto the roof. Cautiously not wanting to damage anything I un latched the window and easily hopped down onto the slab of roof conveniently below my window. Once outside I sat down and was utterly alone, the only sound that could be heard was that of nature. Tempted by it all I kept on moving across the roof until I reached the perfect spot to drop down to the ground I was placed at the edge of the woods and without a second thought I plunged into it and began walking. There was thankfully a trail worn in by all the people that had walked there before so I wouldn't loose my way. I kicked up some dirt as my thoughts began to run ramped and things occurred to me in which I had never considered before. Life is a series of choices in which in some way or another affect someone else. Wether or not we are aware of the way in which the choices we make and the lies we tell affect another or we live in sweet oblivion justifying the lies we tell to others by lying to ourselves, we impact everyone with everything we do. I didn't know what was going to become of Josh and I, and that was terrifying to me. Because standing in the woods that day I realized we were both dangerously oblivious and we have may already done un repairable damage, for our actions have or have yet to affect another, but neither of us knew who.

I stopped for a moment in my epiphany and looked up to realize I was lost and once again oblivious. I darted in a panic back the way I came and kept running until I tripped and toppled to the ground I looked up after that and the trail was no where in sight. My heart began to beat faster and faster as fear set in and tears streamed down my face.

"Help me." I weeped in the woods fully aware that no one would hear me but putting out a subtle cry for help, and at the moment I wasn't even sure wether or not I was asking for help to escape the woods or calling for help to change the course of events that led me to fall in love with Josh and led me to my destructive state of oblivion.

A/N: Im really sorry, I had so many intentions of updating sooner but I have tennis and school and UGH! But just out of curiosity do any of you like Brendan and routing for him?
Little hint about next chapter and later events in the book.. Something is going to happen w/ Brendan next chapter and Josh will be making a reappearance soon. ;)