Is it Enough to Love you (A Josh Hutcherson love story)

Chapter 21: Good Mistakes

Hey hey so funny story, haha I didn't actually mean to end the last chapter on that note, I just forgot to keep writing before I updated.. The laziness is real! So I'm so sorry about that annoying as hell little hangy thing at the end of the last chapter

Chapter 21:

"What is it?" Josh asked curiosity and concern flooding his voice.

"I don't know positively what is going on between you two, however you are probably the most precocious friends in the world." Michelle answered causing my face to heat up and I can only imagine what color it turned. "I don't want to accuse anything wrong of you two, but due to last nights occurrences I will have my eye on you." she pointed to her eyes and then to us warningly.

"She knows." I turned to Josh panic written across my face as I gripped onto his shirt collar after we were out of ear shot of Michelle.

"It's okay." he told me not making any contact at all for Michelle was probably watching us as we spoke. "It will blow over, but she did catch us sharing a bed and will be suspicious however I can trick her out of this idea, trust me." I nodded unsurely not releasing my tight grip from his collar. "Do you trust me?" Josh asked lifting his hand to cup my cheek but quickly drawing it back down to his side before he touched me.

"Yes." I answered releasing him and hurriedly walking from the dinning hall and back to my room where I threw myself down on my bed and pulled out my phone calling the first person I could think of who I knew would calm me down. It had wrung twice before a deep voice answered.

"Hey little sister to be."

"Don't call me that Connor it's weird."

"Why do you not want to be my sister, would you rather be more?" I could tell he was in a cocky mood this morning.

"Let's not do that." I drew out laughing, putting the phone on speaker and throwing down on the bed in front of me.

"Do what? Make love with the windows open so all the neighbors can hear you scream?"

"Connor stop!" I screeched in surprise before hearing a chuckle from behind me and turning to see Josh standing in the doorway.

"Getting kinky with my brother are we?" He asked walking over and swiping the phone with Connor dying of laughter on the other end.

"All day everyday, 24/7." He announced making Josh laugh again.

"Shut up I'll call you back." I took the phone from Josh and hung up.

"He's usually not like that." I muttered not know how Josh actually felt about what he had heard Connor say.

"Don't worry about it. I don't care." Josh chuckled sitting down next to me at a distance and fiddling with his fingers in his lap.

"You don't have to distance yourself from me anymore, your mom isn't here."

"I know, but she's not buying what I'm saying and I think it would be best if we took a break at least until this all blows over, or maybe longer." he began seeming hesitant as my heart plummeted into my stomach, I could already tell I knew where this was going tears collected in my eyes but I held them back as Josh took a deep breath and continued, "maybe it would be better for everyone if we made an attempt to get over our feelings, because I realized this morning how risky it all is. If the public were to know my career would be over and you would get a bad reputation across America, there could be legal problems and I just think it would be better if we ended this."

"I know." I choked "you're right." I got up and made my way towards the door not know where I'd go but had to get away from here so Josh wouldn't see me cry. I knew he was right I just needed time to feel sorry for myself.

"Charlotte." he grabbed my arm and turned me towards him cupping my face " I don't want this to end but it may have to, but no matter what remember that I do love you."

"Don't." I put my hand to his chest before I tore away from his grip and dashed from the room. I knew he was right what we were doing was stupid and I was stupid to think it would turn into anything serious. I don't know what I thought was going to happen but in perspective it was probably best for us to end it before we got caught. I knew it wasn't going to be easy getting over Josh considering I was about to become part of his goddamn family, but it was possible.

I thought about going to the pool before I remembered what had happened last night so I chose to go down to the dinning hall and get coffee. I sat down in a chair alone and let out deep breaths as tears slowly rolled down my face. I felt like someone has just beat the shit out of me and left me to die, I realize how dramatic that must sound but it's really how I felt.

"Charlotte, why are you crying?" Michelle sat down next to me, I didn't realize she was still in the dinning hall.

"It's a lot being back here in Connecticut." I lied through my teeth without feeling any regret what so ever, I sniffed a little feeling my nose begin to run.

"Come here darling." Michelle embraced me warmly and I couldn't hold anything in anymore and I began to cry getting tears all over her. When ever I thought I was done the tears just kept coming, I hadn't cried like this is years, the effect that Josh had on me frightened me but he was my first love and I don't feel like there will ever be another. I forced myself to stop and sat up wiping my face and swallowing my sadness it felt good to cry I didn't care that I was in public and in all honesty it wasn't all for Josh, it was for everything that I had experienced over the past five years, but it was all over now and I was going to start moving on even though every day from now on is going to be a reminder of Josh where I'm going.

"I'm sorry." I laughed after I wiped my face thoroughly.

"Don't be, you had been holding that in for a long time." Michelle patted my back soothingly. I nodded smiling up at her.

"Oh, and you don't have to worry about Josh and I, I can assure you there's nothing going on there, it was a," I hesitated searching my mind for the right word "mistake."

"Okay, I trust you, just don't let it happen again." Michelle smiled warmly but her voice was serious.

"It won't, I promise." I nodded assuringly before I got up "a good mistake." I muttered softly to myself and left making my way back to my room. Josh wasn't there anymore and I got dressed and ready for the day in a big grey sweater and leggings before picking up my phone and calling Connor back.

"Hey, did I piss off Josh?" he answered sounding extremely amused.

"No you're good." I laughed lying down on my bed.

"Awesome, so when are you coming back? I'm excited for you to move in."

"Me too, I'll be back by the end of the week custody is being transferred tomorrow and we're coming back the next day."

"Can't wait doll face, I have this friend that is really excited to meet you."

"Do you now?" I laughed blushing slightly, I was a little embarrassed that Connor was telling his friends about me.

"Yeah, his name is Brendan, he's funny, you'll like him."

"I'm sure I will."

Our conversation went on for a little while longer before Connor had to go do chores and left. Tired I made an attempt to go to sleep but my mind carelessly drifted to Josh and I couldn't stop thinking about him and every moment I had shared with him leading up to an hour ago when it all fell apart, so I sat up and made and attempt to distract myself with TV. I flipped on the television and a movie was playing I checked the title at the bottom of the screen and screamed flipping off the TV and throwing the remote. Little Manhattan.




A/N:

I'm sorry I had to do that it's just I had urges, but don't worry about a thing love will find it's way back into this story.... Hint hint I love you all xx comment/vote and fan