Is it okay to feel regret? I feel shame and embarrassment coursing through my veins just aching for an outlet. But there's no where for it to go. I want a redemption but the embarrassment is just to overbearing. Others always just swallow their pride and make jokes, but I can't do that. Making light or pretending it never happened are the only to options next to the dreaded impossible in excusable one addressment and an apology. Addressing means that it happened, means that everyone will relive it over another time. Pretending it never happened has always been my favorite option, but I feel mortified in front of someone who has been such a crucial part of my life. However ignorance doesn't get rid of the shame.
I always correlated good work to likability the issue for that is when my work slips I feel like there's no way to redeem myself. I've more and more felt the growing pressure and the drop in my stomach over work. My coping? I try to drown myself in music, in harder work, in entertainment anything to pull my mind away.
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Diary Opened
Non-FictionInnermost thoughts and wonderings made public. In order to test the public and push the boundaries of the anonymous. Strong emotions and strong thoughts simply written down. Following a single story and the strongest most noteworthy point of stress...
