Breaking The Rules

Chpt. 38

Today was saturday, and I couldn't believe how fast school actually went by. Although, I hated taking the final exams, I'm just happy I don't have to see Noah down the halls, or anywhere else for that matter.

I can have the whole summer to relieve my stress and forget about Noah. He's done nothing but hurt me, and I'm tired of it.

I cleared my thoughts as I scrubbed my teeth with Aim toothpaste, it felt good against my teeth and it made my mouth feel minty.

Today was the last day until I packed for my trip to the grandparents. I haven't seen them in forever, and now that I think about it, I miss them. I miss my grandmother spoiling me, taking me shopping literally whenever I wanted, and just hanging out.

Most grandparents are usually old and boring, but mine are different. They are so outgoing and I love it. Sometimes, when my grandpa drinks, he gets a little out of hand and he can't stop talking, when I was a little girl, I found it amusing. He was always the person to make me laugh or cheer me up, I have no clue what I would do without him. My thoughts are making me impatient of wanting to see them, and Taylor. I've come to remember him. He was my chubby best friend over my childhood summers whenever I would visit my grandparents. He lived next door, so he came over all the time to keep me company.

I remember all the times he cried to me because he claimed that he gets bullied and judged from his looks and his weight, and I was always the one to take care of him and help him. I didn't care about his weight, I didn't care about his crooked teeth or chopped off hair. He was my best friend, and I was never in for judging him.

My grandparents loves the fact that I was so close to him, and that I helped him with a lot. They even had a little speech with me and how they were so proud of how I've turned out. They claimed I had the best heart of a 13 year old ever, and that encouragement made me want to be around Taylor even more. I felt good being his friend, but whenever I left that last summer, I never came back, he expected me to be back the next summer but I wasn't. He probably hates me now..

"Bree, Noah is here, he said it's important." She calmly shut my door, leaving me speechless by myself.

How dare he come here the day after we have a huge fight. He will probably act like everything is okay, which it's not, and it never will be.

I sighed, I picked myself up off the bed and headed downstairs. Whenever I opened the door I found a frustrated Noah, I knew he was frustrated by the way he was pushing his hair back.

"I need to talk to you." He bit his lip, his eyes looked sorrow, I didn't know what was yet to come.

I wish I could reject him and walk back to my room, but I know I can't.

"Is this about your graduation? Because I'm sorry that I didn't co-"

"It's not about the graduation." He said, I squinted my eyes in confusion, what else would he want to talk to me about?

I closed the door, leaving me and Noah outside, alone.

Every time we are alone, we always end up fighting and I'm always the one to cry.

"It's about the rule." Right when the words left his mouth, I wanted to slap him. Every fucking time he speaks of the rule, I literally want to beat the shit out of him for hurting me the way he did. He led me on, and then practically told me we could never be anything or else he would get picked on.

"Yeah, the rule is over Noah, so now you want me?" I sarcastically smiled at him, somehow, I knew this would happen. I knew that after he graduated, he would come to me.

"Bree." He took a few steps back, bring his hands to his hair.

Noah was worried about something, and it was just now starting to bother me. Was it something I did?

"Okay, tell me what if is, Noah.." I said, taking the two steps forward that he took back.

"I've been hiding something from you." The words burned out of his mouth, his bottom lip placed in between his lips was another symptom of why I knew he was frustrated or worried.

What could be have possibly kept from me that was that bad? He's probably over exaggerating.

He shook his hands, "you are going to hate me, and you are never going to talk to me again." He turned away from my curious stare I was giving him, I heard him take a huge breath in, then he turned to look at me.

"The rule," he implied, "it ended." He said, I already knew that?

"Noah I already knew that, what is the big deal?"

"No no, let me finish." He motioned with his fingers.

What is he trying to say?

"The rule ended a long time ago." I barely heard his voice, but I heard it.

This could possibly mean two things.

"So what?" My lips quivered, "Are you saying that, you've lied to me this whole time? The rule was never an issue?"

He didn't say a word, his silence was only making this worse for me.

"You were embarrassed of me! Weren't you?" I asked, which came out as a scream, "you were embarrass that me, Breanna Taylor would look bad on your fucking reputation, right? I'm not good enough for you, am I?" I was practically in his face, screaming, "am I?" My voice croaked and my heart broke a little, I felt the world crashing down on me, and there was no one to help me pick it up. I have absolutely no one, now I know how Taylor felt. He felt as if he had no one, as if he wasn't good enough for anyone, that there was nothing he could do to be good enough. Now I know, and I am so happy I was there for him.

"I'm sorry." He said, as if it's that easy to say, as if he can apologize and everything that's fucking wrong will be okay, "Listen, Bree." He said walking into my arms, his finger laced my waist and I was being drawn to him, I felt nothing but disgust towards him, and all I wanted to do at this point was scream.

"Get off me! I don't want you Noah!" I yelled, grasping into his fingers and yanking them off of my lower waist.

"I would have given you everything from me! I already gave you my virginity! And then all of this bulls-"

"Breanna?" I heard my mothers familiar voice from, I turned around to see her was peaked out the door, "I think it's time to come in now." She didn't look too pleased, but neither did I. I could scream at Noah for hours, but I decided to take my mothers words, I let go of the glare I've gave Noah ever since he arrived here, and I turned my head from him.

"You'll never forgive me, but I wanted to tell you that I'll be leaving soon for college, we'll never see each other anymore." I heard his voice croak, and I almost forgot why I was mad at him,

Oh..yeah. He's been lying to me this whole time about a stupid rule that ended a fucking long time ago, damn.

Look what he does to me, be brings out the devil in me.

"I'm sorry for what I've done to you, I should have never even messed with you because I knew I was not good for you." He explained, my mother was still listening, "I'm so sorry, Bree." Those were his last words before leaving me hanging, he showed up here, telling me all this shit, and then he leaves. He leaves me.

I knew he was just embarrassed of me, I knew it.

I should have never fucking talked to him.

"You don't mean that." Courtney's voice echoed throughout my head, I screamed, I let out a scream that let my mother to cover her ears.

"Get inside young lady." She said, as if she was mad at me. How much did she hear? I hope to god she didn't hear me whenever I was screaming at Noah that I gave him my virginity.

"Go pack, you're going to b leaving early tomorrow morning and it's already four o'clock." She said, her face pale.

I nodded and did as she said, right as I reached the middle of the stairs, my mother was sat on the couch with her head placed in her hands, I heard a few sobs coming from her and immediately I felt some sort of guilt form inside my stomach. My heart ached, not only for me, but for her. I knew exactly why she was crying, she was crying because she over heard me.

She knows I'm not a virgin.

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