Breaking The Rules

Chpt. 54

Noah's POV

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Previously/

"Can I just kiss you? Once?" He asked, and I felt my cheeks go read, along with my heart beat quickening.

It took me a minute to reply before I answered, I brought my lips to his, holding his jawline. He smiled, and it only made me want to kiss him more.

So I did.

I've had this weird feeling inside of me that's been urging me to do this, and now that I have, I'm finding myself.

Not completely, but slowly.

I'm finding the girl that was completely in love with this boy. This tall, attractive boy.

"God." He said, pulling me onto his lap, which I made it easy for him, considering the possibilities of me wanting to be on his lap.

I sat on him, his knees were propped up, giving me something to lay back on.

"I've missed this." He said, through the intense make out session we have going on. I ignored his words, running my hands through his dark, messy hair. I almost didn't realize how damn good it smells.

I felt his lips curve into a smile against mine, I laughed at him, titling my head back. Is it weird that we are laughing and smiling for no reason? I laid beside him, trying my best not to make things awkward, like I tend to do. I wished I wouldn't have stopped kissing him, I like the attention I get. I love how he smiles at me, how he looks at me, but it kills me that I can't look at him the same way. Did I use to look at him that way?

How can I not remember this, how can I not remember completely who he was? Why does this have to be so complicated..

"Hey, hey." Noah whispered, realizing the small, single tear that had fell from my eyes. "What's wrong?" He asked, I suddenly felt closer than we have in the past few days.

"I'm sorry." I shook my head towards him, "I wish I could just-" I attempted to say the rest, "could just remember you" my hands moved in front of me.

"I'm just sorry." I said, and I'm guessing I had him speechless, considering he was talking.

"It's not your fault, don't even go there with me." He slowly climbed on top of me,

"Your presence is all I need to make me happy."

Okay, so this chapter is short, but I'll make the next one longer, definitely.

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